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Out of Patience!

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Well, I did it. I gave in to that damn scale! I have been working hard, getting in 4 days of exercise with cardio and weights, eating within my range, and have been feeling all the benefits: more energy, pride, self-confidence, looser pants, more room in my bras. I have been on track!

And, then, this morning, I weighed myself. I know from past experience this is not a good idea for me in first month of re-starting exercise and proper nutrition. Its interesting I decided to weigh myself anyway -- a little self-punishment, perhaps, for feeling so good?

I have gained a lb. I am working hard at not letting this get to me, but frankly, it has gotten to me. I am angry and frustrated. I am taking it out on myself. I am out of patience with me and with this weight.

I need to give myself a break but I am having a hard time doing it. This is the perfectionist rising up and I want to SIT ON HER HEAD! So, I am telling the scale to f*&$ off right now; it is slow and will catch up. But, boy, this is hard today. I want to hit my spring goal and I want to weigh my goal weight RIGHT NOW. Where is my patience and compassion?

I am going to visualize me sitting on the perfectionist's head today. And, go to my spinning class. HMPH! No more scales until February!
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    sometimes I weigh myslef twice a day. WHY????? Who knows. I think hiding the scale may be a good idea!
    1922 days ago
    Isn't it just so silly it is to let one moment of weakness and a single pound ruin those feelings of pride and confidence? Obsessing over this (inevitable, if you consider that we are not perfect) stuff doesn't help with progress, and prevents us from being present.

    What are you missing out on while you're busy being angry about this? How can you return your focus to being present, and appreciating your growing muscles and energy from healthy eating? I don't know the answer, I struggle with the same things. In fact I could mention a couple of carnitas tacos from Tuesday that I'm still trying to get over!
    1922 days ago
    I am trying to stay away from my scale until February too. It is hard.

    Sounds like you are taking the right steps.
    1923 days ago
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