Thursday, January 17, 2013
For the record, I don't really care for rollercoasters at amusement parks. I know a lot of people love the thrill. I don't. It creates so much anxiety and fear with in me. I'm screaming the whole time through the ride and shaking afterwards. I don't enjoy going through rollercoaster rides with my food and exercise either. That's what I've been doing lately. UP and DOWN....eating clean and bingeing..........exercise and no exercise. I feel my struggle is more mental than anything. I have to accept that I'm going to have to CHANGE my thoughts about food. I am going to have to learn to eat to live instead of living to eat. I have to develop a new behavior for myself. It will be difficult but I don't want to remain a slave to food for the rest of my life.
I know what I NEED to do, I just don't know HOW to change my mindset so that I can be successful.