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I'm struggling, yep, surprise to some

Thursday, January 17, 2013

For those of you who know me, you find this blog strange, that I write about struggling. But, I admit, I am.

For the past 4 years, I have been diligent and faithful in my workouts and the various nutritional paths I have been on. What started out as a 30-45 minute full body ST workout alternating with cardio sessions and a general healthy diet that led to my weight loss into my strict lifting and strict dieting for figure competitions, I stayed hard fast and true to myself and my goals.

So last year, I decided to hang up the figure shoes and suit and attack another goal that had been whispering to me and one that my spouse wanted to try out with me. Triathlons - running, biking and swimming. So, why then, am I struggling with getting the workouts in and eating properly? I just don't know. emoticon emoticon emoticon

I hate the excuse of stress - because seriously, during the competition prep year, I had significant stress - son graduating high school and signing up for the Marines, my dad and uncle passed away, and my work was draining me of life. So yeah, some stress - but I still managed to pull it off.

SO, what is the deal now? Again, got some stress, but nothing like those previous issues. emoticon

And you know, when I get to the gym, or finish a run, or swim - I am so happy with how I feel and motivated, but somewhere between completing that workout and the next I am fighting with my internal voice and I DO NOT like that. emoticon

I will call it lazy and procrastination.

Just wanted to get this off my chest today... basically noting it in my blog journals. Admitting I am struggling with my self. I do know that I am doing a lot of the right things to stay on track.

I write in a journal
I plan out my meals and workouts
I remain flexible to my schedule (not sure I like this)
I haven't beaten myself up or talked down to myself about this
I let my body rest when I truly feel it needs it
Lastly, I am honest with myself - lazy is lazy

And in the end, if it is going to BE, then it is up to ME.... so, enough of this blog, let's focus on moving in the right direction. emoticon

Thanks all for reading.
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    It takes time to realize when we gotten out of balance. The positivity of the realization is getting our balance back. It helps us refocus our efforts.
    1628 days ago
    I want each one of you who have commented to know that i have taken a piece of that encouragement and advice and put it to use! Rode the bike tonight! Run planned tomorrow. Thanks for the support.
    1982 days ago
    I too am struggling. After 4 years and a huge weight loss, I find myself NOT wanting to workout. After I work out, I feel great but often I have to do some serious talking to myself to keep going. One thing that does keep me wound up is signing up for an event. If I sign up it gives me a reason to drag myself out of bed and go workout. emoticon
    1983 days ago
    I am a major procrastinator, and one of my good friends said to me once, "You know, the amount of mental energy you spend fighting with yourself about whether or not you're going to do something is probably way more exhausting than just getting up and DOING whatever it is you don't feel like doing!" She was right. In the end, it's always easier when you stop thinking and just DO.

    That said, don't be too hard on yourself. No one can behave perfectly all the time.
    1983 days ago
    Every one of us has struggles. It's good to get them out in the open and share with others. We get strength from the support and we support others when they read and know that it's not always an easy path. When everything is always rosy, some get the impression they aren't doing it right when they read that someone else never seems to struggle. We lift each other up and "keep it real". I know you'll get through this and keep moving forward.
    1983 days ago
    I believe we all struggle at times. I too am kind of struggling here but I am really focusing on breaking out of it. Hope you can do the same!
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    1983 days ago
    Just keep at it! I believe in you! You've been there, done that. You can do it again!
    1984 days ago
    you got this!!!! stay strong!!
    1984 days ago
    We have all been there.... it is a human trait!

    1984 days ago
    Thanks for the honesty! If it is going to be truly part of our Lifestyle, then I think we are going to have times like this. emoticon
    1984 days ago
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