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I want to be a brave girl.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

I'm not much of an emotional eater, that being said, it does happen occasionally. Last night was one of those night. My husband is a plumber and with the freezing temperatures he has been working super late every night for the past 2 weeks, plus I've had a bit of a cold and to top it off I'm on my period (for the first time in over 6 months).

Don't get me wrong, I've been a bit on and off on the whole healthy eating for the past few months. Buying a house, moving, holidays and life have just thrown me a bit off track. Plus my doctor told me I needed to gain some weight back and lets face it, eating yummy food is pretty addictive.

Anyways last night sucked. I started eating and just didn't want to stop. I HATE THAT FEELING! I am a total control freak for the most part, so when I lose control it KILLS me.

This morning I didn't go the gym, I told myself it was because I was tired. I needed the extra sleep. I did get up and do a 20 minute workout. I think the truth is, I didn't want to go to the gym because I was terrified what the scale would say. I regretted the decision all day.

I felt stupid for letting myself eat so much, I felt stupid for not going to the gym. I was just flat disappointed in myself. So after sulking all day. I decided I was not going to let myself get the best of me. I refuse to make myself feel anything but proud.

So I got my workout clothes on and went to the gym. I faced that DAMN scale and it wasn't bad, but even if it would have been, at least I was there. At least I am here. Just because I make a bad decision, or hell a string of bad decisions. At least I come back.

There is a great quote that says "If I can't be the girl who is in first place... or second place.... or fifth place.... or twentieth place.... I want to be the girl who keeps showing up anyway."
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    Hahha....I must be brave because I keep showing up!! Well done for going to the gym and facing your demons.....and for doing the 20 min workout at home too. You are awesome, especially at getting control back if you've lost it. I'm pretty good at control but when I lose it I lose it for weeks at a time! Well done emoticon emoticon
    2252 days ago
    Oh man, do I have those days! I love that quote too. Oh, and guess what? You ARE that brave girl. emoticon emoticon
    2255 days ago
    Way to get through the day! Lord knows... I have those days too and they are HARD! emoticon
    2255 days ago
    I love that quote. Thanks for sharing!
    2256 days ago
    It's amazing what a difference it makes to force yourself to get busy and get a workout in. Although even as I am typing this I am aware that I have been struggling lately with just skipping my workouts. However, I have worked hard to end that three month unhealthy streak this week and get back at it. And it is amazing how much better I feel even though I am tired from a long, hectic week.
    2256 days ago
    You are a brave girl - way to go!! The biggest thing is instead of shutting down and ignoring those feelings and actions, you took notice. And when you didn't like what you were doing and feeling you did something about it. That is huge! :)
    2256 days ago
    The food an exercise decisions I make also effect my daily mood! Oh who am I kidding... hourly mood.
    2256 days ago
    Love that mantra!
    2256 days ago
    Good job taking control and getting to the gym! I also tend to beat myself up when I slip up. We have to forgive ourselves and keep pressing forward.
    2256 days ago
    I totally hear ya. It's better to get to the gym than live with not going. And no one is perfect- at least you aren't letting it turn into a 2 or 3 day binge-fest! emoticon emoticon
    2256 days ago
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