Sleep or eat?
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
I've been making changes. Good ones. But those old enemies, those comforting foods, those 'well just have a little' when I know I won't have just a little, are daunting and haunting me.
Today, I'm feeling rather icky. Perhaps I'm coming down with the flu? Oh, I hope not. Haven't had the flu shot, couldn't afford it. Regardless, I feel like I've been through an old-fashioned wringer washer.
I think I'm hungry, but am I? What I really feel like doing is curling up in bed and sleeping but my tummy is growling. It wants food. Can't blame it. It's been at least 6 hours since breakfast. But, I don't feel like finding and making something "good", I want something warm in my tummy like mashed potatoes. But, I can't eat just a serving size. Nope, I fix enough instant to make probably 2 cups and for good measure, I add a small can of corn (unheated) and eat the whole lot. And that's what I'm wanting.
I'm not even thinking, "I've been good now for almost 3wks, I'm allowed to cheat." Honestly, that's not a thought. What I'm thinking is: yogurt = cold, smoothie = cold, salad = cold and I want my warm mashed potatoes. But that would blow my counts all out of proportion. Oh crap, what can I have?
I do know that my body needs rest. Not because of physical exertion, or it's bedtime after a long day, but because I can simply feel it. My head hurts. My body aches and my arms feel like dead weights while I'm typing. So, I don't know what I'm going to eat. But, I do know that I am going back to bed. Whether I eat now or later, well, I haven't yet decided.