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In pursuit of happiness.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Are you happy? In general I think I'm a happy person. God has blessed me beyond reason. I have happy well rounded kids(that drive me crazy) In general I'm a healthy middle aged woman with a career, a beautiful family .

What affects your happiness factor.?
Well my happiness factor seems to be affected BIG TIME by my FAT factor. lol. Maybe it's the fact that I eat better when I am in pursuit of healthy. And when I am in pursuit of healthy, I am exercising, I'm outside more, and I'm not sitting around unhappy about my current state of fat.

Why is it when I'm heavier, I am simply not as happy? Could it be that as a child it was drilled into my head that chubby was NOT good. I can not even count the times that my mom pulled my shirt down over my belly... Or how many times I remember going to change because "something else might look better". She didn't mean me any harm or emotional distress of course, and she would be devastated if she new how bad it hurt my feelings
Even as a teenager, at 130 pounds and a size 12, I viewed myself as fat. (I'm sure it didn't help that my best friend was a size 2...)

Why is it that in my warped mind, Chubby = not successful? Probably some of my upbringing. Of course this line of thinking only applies to myself. I don't use the same judgmental attitude for anyone else. Just me.

I've started reading a book that our secretary was reading called the Happiness project. It's well written, but I've just started it so the verdict is still out. I'll give you a full review when I'm done.
As for now, I will keep sparking, I will keep thinking healthy. I will focus on me. Bigmama is in the pursuit of happy. or should I say Healthy. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    I completely understand happiness and weight being related for you. I feel similarly and while I know it is "in my head" it is still a strong emotional feeling.
    1979 days ago
    I feel that way too Tricia. When I'm overweight, I just don't feel so good about myself & I don't feel physically well at all! By the way, I was always thin growing up, so I didn't have the same issue as you, but my younger sister was always chubby & she got teased & poked at alot because of it. I remember it well.

    You are blessed in this life honey! I do believe that as a wife, mom, & nurse, you get very caught up in taking care of others & often, you're the last one on the list! Am I right? And it takes quite an effort to carve out a sliver of time for you! Oh, I remember it well!

    And I agree wholeheartedly that Healthy=Happiness!. I'll ride that train w/ya all day long!!!

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    1980 days ago
    T, this is a combination of the personal and the cultural. Everything around us rewards thin-ness. If equally qualified fat person and thin person are up for the same job, thin person is going to get it. It's not surprising that moms want their daughters to be thin and successful but sometimes they don't realize they are being hurtful. Kids are like sponges, right? They take all that stuff in. Happiness depends on lots of things and this is one of them. But you're right, healthy = happy. That's not to say that a fat person can't be happy. But I think most people would agree that feeling strong and agile does give you a sense of well-being and happiness.
    1983 days ago
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    You are so amazing to have done all you have! I would love to see you change your name to Happymamat! emoticon
    1983 days ago
    Along with your book, I've discovered the following blog that you might like:
    (I've shared it with a number of SparkFriends.)

    Enjoy your day off!
    1983 days ago
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