Sabotage With A Capital SELF!!!
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
I am beginning to see more and more that I need to tighten up on my defense! SELF-sabotage seems to really have it in for me right now.
Sabotage - 1. any underhanded interference with production, work etc. 2. any undermining of a cause
So with that definition, SELF sabotage is ME underhandedly interfering with production or work or ME undermining a cause.
So that my friends is exactly what has been happening lately. I have done really well and then in the evening, my mind kicks in and SELF sabotage takes over.
Now let's break this down a bit. When I say that my mind kicks in, I am talking about the negative thoughts. Those thoughts that tell me that I might as well give up because I am getting no where. It tells me that it doesn't matter how many plans I make, they aren't going to work so why even go to the trouble. I tells me all manner of things that I won't list here because frankly, I have heard it enough and I am NOT going to give them "press exposure"! lol
I spent some time last night trying to help a friend out of a tough spot emotionally and trying to get them to see how great they were and that they needed to stay positive. Then I turned around and got negative all over myself! What the heck is that?
Then after I had spewed so much negative crap at myself, I proceeded to eat a bunch of crappy food to add to the SELF - sabotage! UGH!!!
Then I went to my room to get ready for bed. I took out my journal and wrote about what I was feeling and that I needed to get to the bottom of whatever was triggering these thoughts.
I know that I have talked, and talked, and talked about being positive and not listening to those negative thoughts that pop up. I have positive things all over my motivational wall in my room. I can tell others to stay positive. Why is it that in the heat of the battle, I let those negative thoughts run a blitz on me?
Proverbs 23:7 says: For as a man thinks in his heart, so is he. So if I am wanting change, my thoughts have got to change! I have to think and speak those things that I want for myself. That is my key to a stong defense against negative thoughts and SELF-sabotage!
Am I not worthy of positive thoughts? Darn tootin'!! Am I not capable of positive thought and comments about myself! Yep I sure am. So moving forward, I WILL only entertain thoughts that are positive about myself! I WILL only speak positively about myself just like I tell my friends to do for themselves. I am worth it! I CAN lose this weight! I WILL get to 150 pounds! I will get healthy! I WILL get off the cpap! I WILL continue to leave all the medicines behind. I am beautiful! I deserve to be happy! I WILL make my plan and stick with it to the end! I WILL make healthy food choices. I WILL exercise everyday. I will see success!
MY BEST DAYS ARE NOT BEHIND ME, THEY ARE IN FRONT OF ME!! I WILL make the most of everyday and take the necessary steps to reach my goals!