Am I struggling?
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
I feel like I'm struggling a little today. Like I've lost motivation. Which is really, really weird. This journey that I'm on doesn't really require "motivation" I don't think. Well, not the eating part. Except, apparently it does.
The funny part about this is that my "lack of motivation" appears directly related to not having done a workout this morning. Which is exactly what I should be doing. Not working out. I did a workout yesterday and some heavy work-related lifting yesterday afternoon that has left me with some really sore, uncomfortable muscles. It's okay to take a day off which was already a planned day off. It feels weird. Wrong.
I ate breakfast and weighed myself this morning and I've lost a little more. Of course, I usually weigh myself in the evenings after dinner, but I did weigh myself in the morning the other day so I have a base line for AM weights. I'm doing well. I was hoping that weight would help me feel motivated about my good eating habits. I didn't seem to help.
But, once again, I'm not sure I need motivation. I haven't done anything "wrong" with my eating. I did have a huge breakfast including the better part of my orange julius from last night, but I also severely under- ate yesterday. Unintentionally. But it happened. So of course my body isn't happy today. I told myself I could have a sit-on-my-butt cheat day to help confuse my body... but it feels so wrong. I don't want to over eat all day.
Now that I've written this, I realize maybe I'm doing okay. I think my mini-panic attack is over.