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Letter to Becky of the future...

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

We are suppose to write a letter to ourselves. I have done this before and it can get very emotional. I was going to do this in a notebook, FOR MY EYES ONLY but if I do this here, it will HELP keep me accountable. I am finally getting back on track slowly but surely.

One thing I would like to tell my future self is ALWAYS be proud of yourself no matter what or where you are. That is one of your biggest issues. You are not happy with the success you have done, then you begin to gain the weight back. Let others become MORE IMPORTANT than yourself & then you happen to look back through pictures and say, "WOW, I had lost a lot! I did look a lot happier!"

So what happens, you get discouraged, get distracted and then a few pounds turn into months and a lot of pounds. You had not been under 200 pounds since having your girls. Do you realize you got down to 184 pounds and thought , "Wow, I've got a long way to go!" Next time & YES there is ALWAYS going to be a NEXT TIME!! Look at How great you are doing, NOT How far you still have to go! Look at this picture....

Wouldn't you say, "YOU are having a blast!?" You were finally in the pictures!
Now look where you were BEFORE that....

Smiling but are you comfortable...Becky of January 2013 says, "NO!!" That smile was a cover because the camera was pointing at you!

Now let's see what has happened over the few years here at spark...
First year you went from 238 lbs. to 190 (I, Becky of Jan. 2013 would say, "YOU GO GIRL!"
Second year, not over the top but still any lose is GREAT! You weighed in at 184 pounds. That is great, you know it is not going to come off as good the smaller you get. You should have been happy but you were not. Well you know what, "I AM PROUD of you!"
OK the end of the second and all of the third year, you let others come between you and your happiness. Your emotions ruled that year and it showed. Self-denial didn't help either...a few pounds no big deal. It was a big deal. You knew it would continue but you thought you could do this alone. You were pulling back from your wonderful friends on spark. They want to help but YOU didn't allow it and now let's look at a few pictures...

Not a bad pic. but you know you were back in the 190's and trying to hide those extra pounds. Let's keep looking...

You are starting to hide from the cameras's getting harder to find you in the albums. Really look at yourself, you can do this. You know you don't mind exercising so get back to the basic everything you feel yourself slipping. Do 10 minutes, take a walk, walk with Leslie or do one of those spark videos. Don't just sit there and say, "I'll do it later, get up now!"
As for your food, you know you are not a big eater. Yes you do eat the wrong stuff but you need to eat. When you let those emotions rule, you stop eating then when you do, it's not food, it's junk. Seriously emoticon you know better so take those few extra minutes to think before it goes in your mouth.

Remember the Becky of January 2013 is inside you. I am proud of you! Even though you have slipped, look where you are. You are CE Director of Living Stones church of God, You have went back to school and got your substitute license, you have ran a house (NOT always easy) for over 20 years, made sure the bills are paid, the kids are clean, they have MORE than they will ever need, you have 2 beautiful daughters and you will KICK this weight thing as well!
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    WOW!! I don't know what to say. Reading this really hurt 😔 It is still all SO TRUE! I always look at others accomplishments but I can never see my own. Have I really let myself FALL so far back down that I'm drowning? Sad but yes I have! That ends TODAY!!
    1164 days ago
    This was a great blog. Really helped me focus.
    2728 days ago
    I LOVED this blog!
    You are amazing!
    Everything you said is so true and hits home, boy does it hit home!
    You are dong a super fabulous job on you!

    2728 days ago
    So proud of you!! And I totally get the hiding from cameras thing. I'm not in very many pictures at all because of that. And awesome job on the letter! I need to get busy on that! emoticon
    2729 days ago
    YOU ROCK! I need to do the same thing. Glad you are acknowledging all of your successes!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2730 days ago
    I"m so proud of you Becky! You really challenged yourself to get out of your comfort zone. You're taking new steps everyday to make sure that that healthier happier Becky of the future starts today! You've got this!

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    Go Bahama Mamas!
    2730 days ago
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