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How Can I Make This Time Different?

Monday, January 14, 2013

It's a new year and I'm still obese. There. I said it. That dreaded word that everyone always tries to avoid. Overweight, chubby chunky, even fat, seems less serious than that obese. Such a clinical term, it always reminds me of doctors and diseases. But i am obese. I have been for many years. I've told myself i was going to change and lose weight. And I've succeeded a few times. Some times 5 pounds, sometimes 25 but I would always give up and gain it all back, Slowly i would claw my way to a smaller size, only to gain it all back over the course of a few weeks. I always seem to stop at the same weight: 207 pounds. Not a good number for a woman of my height,

So here I am again, trying to all over again. I know what to do to be successful. I know about portion sizes and nutrition. I know how to workout. I know I can do it because I have done it before. I also know that I've failed before. Many times. I could be discouraged by this. Instead I see it like I have a lot of practice. I have the tools I need to do it. I can look at why I failed in the past and learn from those experiences. Here some things that I recognize as my past problem areas:

1) Lying to myself: trying to justify things to myself like "I can't really workout today" or "A little bit won't hurt" are good examples. I need to be accountable for everything I do.

2) I'm emotional eater. I eat when I'm bored, sad or happy. I need to recognize when I'm actually hungry and when I'm just trying to shove my feeling down with food.

3) I'm a sugar addict. I find it really hard to eat just a little bit. I have to avoid sugar, especially early in the day.

4) I tend to not eat much all day then eat all evening. In the past when I made an effort to eat earlier, I still ate the same amount in the evening, resulting in a constant calorie struggle. I need to break my evening snacking habit once and for all. I'm going to do this by staying busy,

5) I focus too much on results. I need to stop basing my success solely on the scale. I seem to be a slow loser and that's okay but it does make it difficult for me to stay focused and motivated. More recently, I've been more concerned about my health. This gives me a new focus to my efforts. Even if I don't see any movement on the scale, I can still feel good about the healthy things I am doing for my body,

I'm not sure if this will be the last time I try to lose weight, I hope it is. But if it isn't, I hope I never stop trying. My health too important not to.
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    You just wrote about ME! I also play all those little games with myself, I love to eat and make tons of excuses. Admitting all the things you did is half the battle and this time we can do it! emoticon emoticon
    1980 days ago
  • JJD2711
    Eating is an addiction and many people overcome their addiction and then for some reason they relapse. The good thing is you realize that and are learning from your past mistakes. You know what your triggers are you just need to learn how to cope with them and overcome them. If you keep trying you will get there. emoticon
    1980 days ago
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