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Monday, January 14, 2013

I have been really behind on reading everyone's blog...I think I had 30 or so in my email!
Everyone is doing such a great job!

As for myself, the anxiety is starting to set in about relocating. I have told my other sister and my brother about moving back up there, they seemed perplexed about me moving back that way even though moving is something I have done many many many times...you would think that it wouldn't be a surprise by now! When I make up my mind to pick up and go...that is what I do.
I also told my ex that I was going and I was all ready for a fight about it, not necessarily a fight, but for him to start in with all the nastiness that he has been prone to since we split. My mother took it surprisingly well also! She doesn't live here, but she isn't in Illinois either, the only thing that she wants is for us to 'Stop by on the way', I had to explain that it was actually a few hundred miles east of the route that I would be driving. Sometimes she can't visualize where everyone is at geographically.

I woke up at 5am on Sunday in panic mode about money. Of course it would happen at that time, because I didn't have to be at work and I didn't have to take my son to work, so I SHOULD have been able to sleep in! Then my brain said "I'll take care of THAT for ya!"

I tried and tried to go back to sleep, I wondered for about an hour where the money would be coming from and finally tossed and turned enough that I woke my beau up. I asked him to do the math for me and tell me how we would be able to rent a truck and he said that our income tax returns would be more than enough....Oh. I totally forgot about tax return!
But now I was awake!
I puttered around the house for a little bit and then made breakfast for us and decided to get my behind out the door before the rain came. I got out and walked 5k, it took me an hour and one minute, and decided that if there was no improvement in all this time, then I probably won't get any faster until I can start jogging more/longer intervals. Right now, its just too hard on my ankles. My feet do feel better with my new shoes tho!

I got sprinkled on for about the last 1/4 mile and I felt good but dreaded how my joints were going to feel later (And I was right)
I know its going to be a struggle to keep up with my walking even though I know its gonna hurt until I lose more weight. I have resigned myself to the fact that its a double edged sword. I need to move to lose weight, but I hurt because I am moving. **Shrugs**

I keep making plans to mess around with the Kinect but haven't yet. In fact, we have had the thing for about a year now and have only used it a handful of times. It seems a waste of money until I realize that its because we have CHOSEN not to use it!

Just like eating, it is something that I need to make a better choice in doing/not doing, eh?

Hope you are having a tolerable, if not great, Monday!
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    I hope that as you get closer to the move that you will become less anxious about it. I think it was great that you completed the 5k and your time was good as well. emoticon

    I know exactly where you are coming from regarding the walking issue because I too still have ankle and foot issues. I haven't even gone back to walking and guess what I am okay with that but I wasn't at first So if I may throw in my two cents I will suggest to walk maybe two days a week but rely on other low impact exercises for the weight loss (but you know Diet is the most important thing though) Don't underestimate chair exercises. I have been doing them as a bulk of my exercise and still lost weight.

    Since we aren't able to move because of our bum ankles and feet, taking the pressure off of them, allowing them to rest but doing other exercises is the best thing for people like us. Check out the Chair exercise team here on spark for great (free) resources. I neither one of us will be able to do a walking regimen without pain until some more weight comes off, but we can rely on the chair exercises to help us become great pain free walkers again (in time). I believe you can do this; you are much stronger than you think. emoticon
    1927 days ago
    Wow! You have a lot going on. But, how great that you got out and walked 5K instead of sitting around worrying or eating. BTW I think a 5K in an hour is a fantastic pace!

    I so know how you feel about the endless cycle of exercising hurts because I weigh so much but, I have to exercise so I can lose weight. For me, what finally seems to have worked was giving up soda (ALL soda - even diet) and cutting out as much high fructose corn syrup as I possibly can. It has made such a difference in how much aching my joints do. It didn't happen over night but I was just thinking about it last night and realized that I haven't had near as many injuries or aches and pains as I use to. When I do happen to eat something with HFCS I can really tell a difference. Don't know if that works for everyone - maybe it is partly because I have persevered for almost 2 years and have lost 60lbs.

    Anyway, be proud of your self for working out when stressed on Saturday! Ya did good. You can do this! Keep it up!
    1928 days ago
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