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The Burning 'Yes' Inside

Monday, January 14, 2013

I've been thinking the last couple of days about my motivation - how random it is. Some days I am so completely motivated and you couldn't pay me to eat anything not on plan. Other days? Don't get between me and the chocolate ... and can I eat that in bed please because I'm not working out today. What is that? Why??

I hate how inconsistent I've been. A sparkfriend (ibshaunie) had a blog not long ago on being 'consistently inconsistent'. Oh, I can relate to this! I know it's true that being consistent with small, good habits is WAY better than having a gung-ho 2kg weight loss week, followed by an 'anything goes buffet' week.

When I listed my failures to my husband a couple of days ago he pointed out that even though I hadn't stayed on my self-imposed plan in week 2 (only week 2!), I was still doing way better than I had before I made any plan at all. Ohhhh, it's that old 'progress not perfection' thing! That's good, right? Bless him for noticing and knowing exactly the right thing to say to combat my discouragement.

The new plan needs to contain grace for myself - room to grow and build the healthy habits without feeling like a failure if I eat a piece of my daughter's homemade cake.

- Drink your water, Lisa
- Go to bed at a reasonable hour most nights, Lisa
- Get up at a reasonable hour, Lisa - with time to exercise before the kiddos are about.
- Eat healthy most of the time, Lisa - and watch how much is on your plate.
- Don't eat your emotions, Lisa! Lonely? Write to someone. Bored? Do something! Discouraged or overwhelmed? PRAY!

The Biggest Loser Competition starts on Wednesday. I'm feeling freaked out about it - it's huge and a bit complicated! I'm not, however, letting myself think: "Wednesday! Wednesday! As of Wednesday I can't ..., and I'm going to ... everyday!" No! Starting today I'm reminding myself of 'mindfulness', keeping the big picture goal in the front of my mind (healthy, fitting in my summer clothes in June!), and that the little good habits will add up to achieving my goals.

I'm also thinking of a quote I read earlier this week, that I'm trying to apply to my daily decisions - what to eat, how to spend my time:

“You have to decide what your highest priorities are and have the courage – pleasantly, smilingly, nonapologetically – to say ‘no’ to other things. And the way to do that is by having a bigger ‘YES’ burning inside.” ~ Stephen Covey

The bigger 'yes' burning inside. Yes.
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    Love the quote!! BLC is crazy overwhelming at first, but it quickly becomes a routine- a healthy supporting routine!!! You fall into it perfectly, creating long term healthy choices to get you past week 2!! :D
    1919 days ago
  • AIMS130
    You can do it! Great blog! emoticon
    1919 days ago
  • SUZIEW27
    You are in the same place so many of us here on Spark are in!! You are not alone. Don't let the BLC freak you out. It is a lot of info right up front but you will ease into it. There is such an amazing support system on this team. I promise if you stick through these first couple of weeks things will get easier and you are going to make some wonderful friends!
    1920 days ago
    Good job. can't beat ourselves up but just get back on the wagon and keep looking forward.
    1920 days ago
    Love this! You are so right - You said it so perfectly! We need more grace. We need to be kinder to ourselves. So glad to have you to help me and that I'm here to help you! It's a process, a journey and every step, even if its small is better than not stepping at all. emoticon emoticon
    1921 days ago
    Beautifully said!
    One line you wrote, especially jumped off the page at me today:
    "The new plan needs to contain grace for myself - room to grow and build the healthy habits without feeling like a failure..."
    So perfecting stated. We need to treat ourselves like we would a family member or a good friend.
    Your goals are personal and achievable without being overwhelming. I know you CAN do it! Thanks for motivating me too! Have a super week and enjoy the Biggest Loser Competition, too!

    1921 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/14/2013 12:51:21 PM
  • PATTYJ48
    You can do it Lisa. We are all here to encourage and support you. That is what I have been missing on my journey.

    It looks like you have a good plan for the first week. emoticon
    1921 days ago
    Great blog. Yes, grace for yourself is part of the solution. Try to be as nice to yourself as you are to everyone else. You are doing great and that is what matters.
    1921 days ago
  • SAILOR64
    Every time I lose my mojo I remember the theme song to "Rocky. "

    If this doesn't get you going I don't know what will! LOL

    JUICE to you!
    1921 days ago
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