Your openness and clear communication of your feelings and thoughts was a pleasure to view & listen to. Thanks for sharing! I can relate.
When I trained as a health coach, we learned about a little thing called "de-evolution", in relation to self sabotage. It's like exactly what you described. Many people go through it, I can assure you dear, you're not crazy!
Thank you for this vlog. So well articulated and expresses moments I have had so many times. I think you're right to call it what you do. I call it: "see how far I can jeopardise myself" It's almost like we like being in the sh** so we can dig ourselves out again because that's what satisfies us most. But I guess, Maintaining is a whole other beast which should be just as exciting a challenge...
I'm exactly where you are right now and ready to jeopardise the successes I've made and I really need to stop myself.
By the by, you're looking trim and amazing. I really see a glow in your face :) 2497 days ago
Thanks for the comments everyone. I think doubt, particularly self-doubt, is normal for everyone at every stage of the journey but I'm glad I can share my inner ramblings with you all on here. We all need to vent and get our thoughts out there even if that's now how we feel all the time. Thanks for the encouragement! :) 2497 days ago
No, your not crazy, do the same thing, I get to my goal, revel in my sucess, and then slowly eat my way back up to what I was, eat like that until I can't stand it, then, get the strength or the I can't stand feeling this way anymore, so i lose it again. UP/DOWN I once weighed, 275 about 25 years ago. Made it to 155, then back up to 200, told myself, I will never weigh over 200, cuz if I go over that, then what will stop me, to go 300. My age, can't take the extra weight, and why should I. This is going to be the last time, I do this to myself, we are better than that. We deserve to be the person, we were created to be, and we worked very hard. Face it, whether we eat healthy and exercise, or so to say off the wagon, we are still focused on food, weight, exercise, and the like. So, might as well, focus on eating healthy and moving our bodies. Enjoy your vacation, I say eat what you want, within moderation, drink lots of water. I am sure you will be moving your body. I heard if you look to the past you get depressed, if you worry about the future you get anxiety but if you focus on the now, you are in peace. Just focus on each day, you know what to do, I feel your what if's, the unknown, this will create tension, stress, and set you up to fail. Let your tomorrow's be tomorrow, enjoy this day, and just keep on target for then. Stay in the present, sorry to repeat, but I am also preaching to myself, cuz, I do this alot, live in the what if land. Celebrate, who and what you have become, and enjoy it, have a great vacation. 2497 days ago
hi you have came along way, keep up the good work, you have all the tools, i think we all fear the unknown or get to confortable then we slide back into our old rountine which is dangerous, im trying to take it one day at a time and do whats best for me.i love my new lifestyle.there is so much info here, all we have to do is surf around the site and we find all the answer we need ,lots of recipes for healthy snacks to take on your vacation. remember we only get one body so we better treat it good 2497 days ago
I think when you start thinking about this as a lifestyle and not a diet, you won't think in terms of gaining back and failing. When it is a lifestyle it is something you do like breathing without analyzing it or thinking much about it, it just is. On vacation nothing would change. Eating healthy would be something you just do. Exercising you just do because it feels good because a healthy body craves it.
When I stopped dieting and depriving myself and learned to cook healthy and enjoy the food I eat, I adopted a lifestyle which caused me to lose 45 pounds and keep it off.
When I vacation I still crave eating healthy. I still try foods I don't eat at home but in moderation. I never deprive myself.
Have fun on vacation!
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