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Managing the situation

Monday, January 14, 2013

Things have been up and down. I felt like I was getting more energy and then I crashed for a few days. I am not sure if it was due to changing the type of light I was using in light therapy too frequently, my TOM or something else, but I pushed through it.

I've been sticking to my goal of exercising 6 days a week for 30-60 minutes, even when I don't feel like it. I do cardio every workout and also a strength workout 4 days a week, the intensity changes but on average it's moderate. I've had a total change of lifestyle - from remodeling house(s) all day to being sedentary after the move, so I think it's important to get in activity each day. I find it helps my mental state to workout too.

I am still unsure if this energy drain I've been going through is totally seasonal. I don't think it is, since my dad died 3 months ago, I've given up my own home that was my project for almost 3 years, I've relocated to a new place and am facing some major career decisions that I've been putting off for a couple of years now. I also feel like my life lacks focus. Sometimes I don't know if the depression is contributing to the lack of focus or vice versa. Either way I'm attempting to break out of it by making some new goals for my life.

I started out with my new goals oddly enough, by the old saying that you should write your own obituary. There is also a principle from the book, "The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People", that says to begin with the end in mind. So, that's what I am doing, and it has been helping. What do you want from your life? And then how will you get there?

I also need some goals for my workouts, aside from the 6 day a week goal. That is fine, but sometimes I feel like, "What I am working out for?" Sure, a vague sense of, "I will feel better" is OK, but I am most motivated by training for something. It's easier to go out and run in the cold if there is a distinct schedule with an end result, rather than some idea in my head of "I need a workout to include in my six days for this week." I don't think I have the energy for full marathon training, so I'm not sure what that will be right now.

Perhaps I should just not push things for now, do the best I can, rest, and let things come back in their own time.
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    Rest is good, just as much as consistency is. Balance, love. Find your balance. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1915 days ago
    Hang in there and listen to your body...all will works itself out when it is supposed to.
    1922 days ago
  • HEIDI-25
    So you know what are two of the life changing events in one's life that are the most stressful?? ~the death of someone that you love and moving (unemployment or new job, divorce, marriage, birth of a child...are the other ones I think) So would it not make sense that you are experiencing stress over having both of those things happening at the same time? Just saying :P
    Good luck with figuring out a new workout schedule/goal. You can do it!!
    1922 days ago
  • JACKIE542
    I think you got it right at the end of your blog, rest a bit, clear your mind and it will come to you as to what you should do. emoticon
    1922 days ago
    So many changes that are on your stress-o-meter of life, it just catches up every now and again, even when we've made progress. Hang in there. Wishing you a peaceful MOnday. HUGS!
    1922 days ago
    Wow, big changes. Stick with it. I remember when I finished doing my evening MBA, I'd get home from work and be like...well now what am I going to do...
    1922 days ago
    Transitioning a habit -- like training, if not for a marathon -- might help keep you balance as you find yourself in Seattle. It's definitely a step in the right direction!
    1922 days ago
    Definitely think it is an accumulation of stuff---and getting ready to look for a job when you have no idea what you want to do and what is out there would be a real stressor for me.
    1922 days ago
    Yes, rest is an essential part of healing. Don't push too hard right now.
    1922 days ago
  • SHEILA1505
    Big hugs
    I understand about 'why am I working out?' Sometimes, I just have to have a competition with myself to accumulate the minutes (I don't train for Runs, etc) until I get my mojo back and work out for fun again.

    You've experienced so many of the big events that trigger depression, all in one year, and you're working through it well. Hang in there!
    1922 days ago
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