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Drowning VS Living Strong

Sunday, January 13, 2013

This past week I felt like a big polar bear that was holding on to my iceberg and drowning.
I did a lot of self talk because I was doing so well up until this past Monday and then it was just like a light switch shut off in my brain.

So these are the things that I think I was allowing to cloud my days.

1. It was the first week back to normal after 3 weeks of holidays - not that I took off 3 weeks, but I worked on 3 full days in the past 3 weeks. So I will call this the holiday let down.

2. It was my birthday on Thursday and I really wanted to celebrate it somehow, but I was feeling so blue that I couldn't even come up with how I wanted to celebrate. So the day went by just like all the others. (at least no cake was devoured)

3. The weather has changed to extremely cold and I was still recovering from the allergy pills that I took last week - so all I wanted to do was bundle up and hunker down (which didn't include running or walking or exercising, for that matter)

4. I wanted comfort food, but I was too lazy to even get up and make some or even go buy some already made. (Saving grace here is that I didn't overeat)

5. I wanted to watched old time movies, old TV shows, lay on the couch and be a potato.
We just added HBO to our cable and the new choices of movies was quite enticing.

So yesterday I decided that enough was enough.

1. I put on my running shoes and pulled on my big girl panties and got my body moving again.
2. I made a list of good, healthy dinner meals so that when I go grocery shopping I can have some idea of what the next few weeks menus are going to be.
3. I weighed myself and found that I didn't gain, nor did I lose - just lost my momentum and my motivation for awhile
4. Got myself back reading Spark blogs and feeling some happiness come drifting back into my head.
5. Talked to my S. O. about planning a good trip for Sept or Oct - to a hot climate - so I can have something to dream about for the next few months.

Anyway, these are not huge thoughts - but just strong enough to pull me out of the water and put me back onto the frozen ice, because I am still feeling like a polar bear. (I am not use to weather in the 20's.

What do you do when you get the winter blues?

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    I had looked over your blog earlier, but didn't have time to comment. I had noticed that I wasn't seeing much of you on SP, of course, I've been a bit absent myself. I was thinking last Sunday that I wanted to send you a goodie letting you know I was thinking of you and missed you, then I saw this blog.

    Hope that you are well and strong in the journey. Struggling a bit here!
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    1916 days ago
    I hear you loud and clear, Joann. This week is the first week that I've felt 'normal' since Christmas afternoon. I've had the flu that comes and goes and comes back again. I was pretty off-track a lot of that time. :( I didn't feel like cooking, either, and often just managed to get dinner for the kids. I certainly didn't overeat during that time. Which is a big reason I got so mad at the scale when it didn't move.

    My birthday is coming up at the end of the month so we were both born in the coldest month of the year. Brrrrrr. It's a big one for me. My son's is 2 days before mine so we will celebrate on the weekend, but my birthday is on a Monday and I know nothing important will happen that day. I'll be lucky if anyone even remembers. It wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't 'programmed' to make a big deal out of birthdays. So I'm already psyching myself up for that day ~ to NOT be disappointed. :)

    I was exactly like you about just getting HBO and watching tons of movies. We just got an HBO package in Dec. :) I watched some movies on HBO and some classics. Would you believe that before Turner Classic Movies was available in Canada, I went to Montana, bought a Dish Network dish, got a PO box to get my bills sent to, went home and paid someone to install it. JUST so I could get TCM. I laugh at myself now ~ but I had that dish for about 10 years before I finally let it go. That is how much I love movies ~ especially classics. :) Don't get me started on the recent award shows ~ which are my passion. ;)

    On top of it all, I almost always get post-Christmas 'blues'. After the gifts are open and dinner is done, its like ~ "Now what . . . . " and I really have to fight depression.

    Anyway, I am so glad that we are both back on track and feeling better, in all ways. Thank you for your comments on my last blog about the scale, etc. It helped me to get a better understanding of things that were bothering me. :)

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    1919 days ago
    do those big girl panties come in Pink??? LOL ;)

    emoticon you had some awesome wins! Why not have a *planned* birthday celebration... mani-pedi is not my cup of tea, but something special, to honor another year of happy, healthy & progress to live through? another year of ______________ ~ going for it! I really can't wait to hear all about it! (((hugs))) Happy Birthday!

    (in some countries they plunge into the icewater for the fun of it! brrrrrr!!!! ;)
    1921 days ago
    Well you did a good thing by getting in some exercise and motivating yourself by reading some fun blogs. You are taking steps in the right direction. The advice I always give myself when I don't want to follow my plan is, "Go ahead and do it, then you can complain about how you don't want to from a position of having already done it. " It feels good, doesn't it!
    1922 days ago
    I'm pretty much in the same place as you are, except I gained 4 lbs! Fortunately, 3 of them are gone already. I'm getting by by sticking with my fitness regimen and planning lots of fun activities to keep my spirits up. My calories haven't been the greatest, but at least not totally out of control, like in December. I just have to keep fighting until my mojo kicks in again.

    Good luck!
    1922 days ago
    I totally understand, I get that way too and December was my bad month! I have SAD, which is Seasonal Affective Disorder a type of depression and get it off and on, even in FL. It is so hard to battle that!! You even get to craving carbs like you wouldn't a bear that wants to hibernate! SP keeps me motivated on a daily basis, if I didn't have it those moods like you described would probably be more constant. You did what I do, get outside and go! Only we walk, not run. Glad you didn't gain!! That is awesome!!!
    Good for you!! Keep at it!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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