Am I being unrealistic?
Sunday, January 13, 2013
Every New Year, most everyone makes resolutions. The top resolution being to lose weight. I have made that resolution, oh let's say, 25 years. And by Jan. 5, that resolution and any others I made are broken, making me feel like a failure year after year.
And so, on Dec. 28th, I was sitting alone, as usual, contemplating life and everything that I view as failures. Always being fat as the #1 failure was what was foremost in my mind. So in hopes I typed in "free help losing weight." Of the pages that were listed, I saw the link for SparkPeople. My best friend had mentioned this site when she first started her lap-band journey, I vaguely recalled. So I clicked the link.
I read through the site and decided to give it a try, figuring it would be yet another failure in my life. But, I've strangely become quite attached to the site, almost fanatic about it. I come on many times a day, although I rarely comment on other peoples posts or blogs, I thoroughly enjoy reading them, and really, REALLY take to heart the comments directed to me from my posts, or my blogs.
And since it's only Jan. 13th, am I being unrealistic with myself? When July comes, will I still be on my mission? I've scrolled through many of the SparkPeople's pics and have noticed there's many who haven't updated in many months or even over a year. I don't want that to be me. But I'm so afraid that I'm going to do SparkPeople like I have Facebook, or Pinterest, or Twitter or my own blog...be excited every day, then all of a sudden it's every other day, and then it's just whenever.
I want to succeed. I want something in my life to be a success.