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It really hurts

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Well I am married, and this is a choice that I made. I often feel now that I have made the wrong choice. My husband is very vial and nasty with his mouth. He feels that I must do as he say and not have a voice. I support him the best way that I possibly can and that is never good enough. I often wonder when will I ever get support. Last night, I finally realized that I would not get any support from him. We had a very heated argument over the phone and I hung up on him and turned off my phone. Do I regret what I have done!! Excuse my expression "HELL NO!" I don't. He must realize that it's not a choice for me to be in his corner. It's not an obligation; it's because I want to. I must say that I went to be feeling really upset, but woke up this morning feeling ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS! I get tired of being walked all over. I take care of the kids, clean the house, pay the bills, make sure everyone is OKAY! and I have to hear from my husband all the time oh somebody said you said this and that and this. I'm to old for this. I don't have a life and now I will because I see that I needed to set myself free and do something for me. He is upset because I am going to the gym. Since I started January 2, 2013, I have lost 8 pounds; this is due to my hard work and dedication, not because of his support. The more he ridicules me the more MOTIVATION is set forth for me to prove to myself that I can do it. I realize that I don't need a man in my life like that. He has his own issues in which, I have been so supportive of and now Springbaby has broken free from the CHAINS and NEGATIVITY. I know marriage is a union where disagreement go ups and downs; but I'm NO ONE'S DOOR MAT!
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    A lot of men are so insecure that they fear you becoming attractive, in case you meet someone else. Why they think that being unpleasant to you, will make you any more likely to stay, I have yet to figure out!
    1928 days ago
    I hope he'll understand that sometimes you need to do something for YOU, and what you're trying to achieve now is good health.
    1929 days ago
  • 1935MARY
    Good for you. I don't get any support from my husband, but he doesn't say anything about me going to curves, but I go when he is at work. I too have always done for others and I decided it was my time. I have issues with my eyes, so I related to him I have to do this or go blind I think he can relate to that, Take care of you. We can do this . I am here for you . emoticon on the 8 pounds. that is emoticon . When mine makes me mad I am more motivated. Sometimes motivation comes from strange places and things. Good Luck and emoticon . You are emoticon and emoticon . Sending you allot of emoticon .
    1929 days ago
    Cheers to not being a doormat.

    You deserve better!

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    1929 days ago
  • 3G1RLS4ME
    I often feel the same way, its harder when we have kids to break away since we almost broke it off he's realized exactly how much I do and how worth I am to him and he has his slips still like yesterday but then he somehow gets better. If you don't mind ill pray for both of us, just don't stop going to the gym take care of yourself first. Maybe afterwards he'll follow. I've lost 28 lbs so far.
    1929 days ago
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