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My Truth!!!

Saturday, January 12, 2013

The only way I AM going to get to where I AM going is to be honest. And here are my truths that I have to face and put on the table.

Black and white truth: My lowest weight was 187-189lbs. Held briefly. Substained low, 194lbs.
Black and white truth: The last time I weighed on 1/8/13, I weighed 219.8lbs.

I have many stories, reasons and excuses, some are even pretty reasonable and make since why I would have gained. But I have to be real with myself. At the end of the day, no matter what the reason, I am up way too much. I want to go into a spill of my stress and not working, not having a routine, etc., which makes since for a gain, BUT my body doesn't care!!!! My knees don't care!!!, my heavier breathing don't care. All my body knows is it is harder to function and my clothes don't fit anymore!!!

And the facts are the facts. 189-219. Period.

Getting real with myself. First step. Period.

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  • NICKB1978
    Lady I am right there with ya!! I told my bf at the end of December that if he enjoys cooking for me then he would have to cook "clean" for me or I will just make my own food. But he decided to cook clean. I was still eating clean but it was 50/50 and not 80/20 so I gained 9 pounds. ever since than I have been on it like white on rice!! last week was the first week I have done 5 runs in a long time. So lady it is OK it happens to all of us you'll be back on track when your ready to be!! :-) emoticon
    1944 days ago
    When trying to change we have to realize that its not an overnight or easy process. You just have to eat healthy Most of the time. If you eat healthy for six days reward yourself with a (1) treat. Whatever you love that you know isn't good for you. But eat half of what you would normally eat and add something good for you with it. Me, I might have a large slice of veggie pizza with extra cheese and a nice salad. We just have to retrain ourselves on how to successfully lose weight and keep it off. Jennifer Hudson said it best, I love our extra large, extra cheese world we live in, Don't deprive yourself of your favorite foods! Eat emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Then have emoticon
    1951 days ago
    Facing the problem really is the first step to getting back on track. With a little hard work, we'll be back into those clothes that don't fit. emoticon
    1951 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/14/2013 9:34:10 PM
    Hey we all slip up the thing is not giving up!! Being here accepting where you are and moving on is exactly what will get you where you want to be.
    1952 days ago
    This must be the week for reality checks because I had to "check" myself also.. after being gone for a long while.

    Don't sweat it...or I guess we should if we want to see this weight come off.

    Glad you're let's do this!

    1954 days ago
  • CROWLEY123
    Good for you! Honesty with yourself, first and foremost, is powerful.
    Hold onto that truth. Work with it, wrestle with it, make it work for you!
    You hold the only power that can effect a change, and right now you have that power clearly in your hands! Don't let go!
    1954 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/12/2013 7:21:19 PM
  • CARPEDIEM_2009
    We all go through a phase were we ignore our bodies, but once we realize what we are doing and stop the excuses, we get up and start again. You are on the right track, and I believe and know that you will get to where you need to be. I have been where you are my highest 305 and got down to 240 to gain back and now at 285 a 40 lb gain. Good Luck!!!
    1954 days ago
    you arent the only one of us to slip and slide! i went from absolute low of 192 to sustaining 200, and now here i sit at 245 (oops!) all we can do is use each decision we make every day to turn it around. i am back to tracking food which keeps me far more accountable than when i don't, and when i've recovered full from this cold/flu combo i'll be back to working out, right now i am making it my mission to get my food in order so i'll be able to handle all the cravings that come with working out harder.

    i am glad you are back so we can do this together! you have always had a way of saying 'forget the past and forget the future, live & work on the now!' so i will embrace that & move forward with you!
    1954 days ago
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