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10 minutes in hell

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Today i'm participating in a roller derby tournament in which each team only has 5 skaters (+1 alternate) and each game is 5 jams in a row (aka 10 minutes). Ten minutes is no joke even when you are just blocking. I'm not so worried about the skating part of this as I am our uniforms. We all agreed to wear unitards. I'm talking skin tight Lycra number with NO place to hide any insecurities. I'm terrified. I told myself I've been working out and eating right and I look better than I have in a long time... but then I had my weekly weigh in this morning and i've gained AGAIN! I went to the gym with my Mom and she assured me I look good, but that damn number has me feeling pudgy and dumpy and not confident at all.

My only hope to survive tonight is to beat people with my skill and strength on the track and if they want to point and laugh at what i'm wearing that's fine with me. Kind of...

Anyway, if I manage to get any flattering pictures I'll share them...
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    Brave! But anybody (IMHO) who'd dare laugh at someone with the skills needed to participate in a roller derby is nuts! emoticon
    2202 days ago
    It was actually really fun. We only played 3 teams since the brackets were messed up by the league running the event. We tied for second place with another team and never got a chance to play the first place team.

    Anyway, the onesie thing wasn't too embarassing in the moment. But I'm more nervous about unflattering pictures showing up on facebook. Oh well...

    I will post pictures if I find any. None so far.
    2226 days ago
    If I had to wear a "onesie" in public, I'd cry.

    Embarrassing outfit aside... How'd it go?!
    2226 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/15/2013 3:28:59 PM
    So, no calling it off, full two minute jams? Are you doing PBJ/everybody jams?
    2228 days ago
    I can't wait to hear the results - the thought of playing in unitards made me smile. And you know how great it is to be more nervous about how you're going to look than your ability or endurance - right? Because that's incredible.
    2228 days ago
    if you've been working out as hard as roller derby requires, what you gained was muscle, which is heavier than fat for the same volume. don't worry about the higher number on the scale. it means nothing. emoticon
    2229 days ago
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    emoticon I agree that we always look worse in the mirror than we look to others. Stay focused on the joy you find in roller derby (or you wouldn't be doing it) and amaze everyone with your killer skills.
    2229 days ago
    Everyone will be so wowed by your skill and enjoying the whole event that they won't be judging your body. You'll be out there kickin' butt! emoticon

    Focus on doing a great job and having a fantastic time! emoticon

    Oh, and we want to see pictures! emoticon
    2229 days ago
    You will be great. Any one who can take part in a roller derby has to be in good shape.
    2229 days ago
    It is natural for us to look in the mirror and always see flaws in how we look, but others can look at us and tell us we look fine. You have to believe in yourself. Just because the scale says you have gained, doesn't mean you have gained in inches. It could be water weight or many other factors that the numbers on the scale have one up. Just focus on staying positive and don't let the scale defeat you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2229 days ago
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