500 little words

Saturday, January 12, 2013

I have often wondered if you could express this journey in five hundred words. I know for each person how that got here is going to vary. I thought I would put mine down. Give it a real hard look.

I used to be the other end of the spectrum when it comes to this sight. I at one time weighed a whole eighty-nine pounds. I controlled every morsel of food or lack of it. I went days without eating. That was a very unhealthy time in my life. Things were so beyond my control that my weight was the only thing I could have total power over.

I received some intensive help for that. The issues where dealt with and slowly I gained weight coming in around 96 pounds. Then I got pregnant with my first child. She was unplanned and I was a whole eighteen years old. She came along and I gained right around 50 lbs. I looked good and healthy at that point. I however forgot that I could no longer eat for two and continued down that path. Two years later I had my second child and broke the 200 pound barrier. I just kept gaining and never even thought of getting control.

My thirties rolled around and my body decided to start sending my some warning signs. I stand a mere five foot two and all the weight I was carrying was just too much. Two hundred and eighty three was my all time high (or low). I had hit the wall and my body was screaming for relief. I joined spark many years ago and got motivated. I lost fifty pounds. My body was happy. Hip pain gone, knees no longer so stressed, back thankful too.

We moved late summer of 2011 and I just fell away from myself. I gave in to all those bad eating habits and gained a portion of what I had lost back. I would pop in and out of here trying to find that thing again only to come up lacking. I know it was not this site. This site is amazing and I have seen so many success stories. It was me. Things in my life had gotten chaotic. I dont handle it well emotionally needless to say.

I am back again. I am making very small steps this time around. I dont know if my journey will be steady. I do know that I need to make this be it rocky or smooth. It is something I know I will be so happy that I did it. I realize it wont be easy and changes will have to happen. I can do this!!!

However you got here I do wish you the desire and strength to continue. Perhaps today you take a hard look at how you got here. Dont give up and if you slide back always keep coming back. I know I will.

Push forward my friends and we will most certainly be victorious.
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    I enjoyed your story. I was also very thin when I was young. I hope 2013 is a great year for both of us and that we attain our goals.
    1982 days ago
    You can do this!! emoticon emoticon (Can you hear me cheering for you? emoticon ) Thanks for sharing some of your journey with us! emoticon
    1983 days ago
  • JOSIE2013
    You should be proud of yourself for staying at it! Despite all your setbacks you are still trying. I think all of us have given up at one time or another. I know I have given up on multiple occasions. Thanks for sharing your encouragement. :)
    1984 days ago
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