Crazy Little Thing Called FAT!
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Although I track my weight weekly here, I check it daily, in the morning, in whatever I wore to sleep. Yesterday, when I got on the scale, it was the exact same number as a week ago. Of course, I grumbled....A LOT! But today, I got on the scale, and I'm down 2lbs!
I have watched over the past 2 years as my best friend who had lap-band surgery went from being 300+lbs to 167lbs. And I was so envious! I wanted the lap band. I wanted to be thin. I wanted people to say WOW! All that she was getting. Then, as I've said before, life got in the way. She had to begin working two jobs thus couldn't get to the gym because she was simply so tired from working a full time job and a part time job. Her eating habits reverted too. And just yesterday, she sent me a text to say she now weighs 262lbs. I felt horrible for her. All that money she paid out of pocket for the lap band and she basically has to start all over.
It made me realize that there really isn't a simple, magic, snap your fingers and poof, way to lose weight. It will take hard work, dedication, changing mind and lifestyle, and sticking to it. Oh I know things will get in the way and instead of eating something good, I'll eat my ol' comfort foods. I'll get upset at what I did and then return to what I hope is becoming a positive and successful lifestyle change.
Fat is funny. Your body wants to keep it. My best friend continues to tell me that I have to eat or my body will think I'm starving it and it will cling to the fat like it's green on grass. It won't let it go.
I never understood that. For years, when I worked, I existed on 1 meal a day and the rare occasion of 2/day. Now that I'm unable to work, thus am less active, I'm so afraid that if I eat more than once a day, I'll gain.
But, I'm finding that's not true. My fears are being debunked. I track my food. Following the guidelines as closely as possible, I have found that I have lost weight.
Now, I am hopeful about losing weight. Even my Mother has told me she will not sabotage my diet as she has also struggled with obesity. She always asks me what I want for Sunday lunch because I eat lunch with my parents on Sunday. When she asked me this time, I told her, "Let me think about it and I'll get back to you" then I told her, baked chicken and whatever else she wants to fix. I'll be content with baked chicken.
I know I'll have setbacks. But, I think my mindset is going in the correct direction. While I still want those fat-filled, oh-so-yummy foods, I realize that the constant eating of them is what has gotten me fat. It's crazy, I know, to be 45 and just come to the realization that FAT is the only thing that loves you being fat. I don't want to be fat anymore...I want to be PHAT (Pretty Hot and Tempting)!