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Crazy Little Thing Called FAT!

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Although I track my weight weekly here, I check it daily, in the morning, in whatever I wore to sleep. Yesterday, when I got on the scale, it was the exact same number as a week ago. Of course, I grumbled....A LOT! But today, I got on the scale, and I'm down 2lbs!

I have watched over the past 2 years as my best friend who had lap-band surgery went from being 300+lbs to 167lbs. And I was so envious! I wanted the lap band. I wanted to be thin. I wanted people to say WOW! All that she was getting. Then, as I've said before, life got in the way. She had to begin working two jobs thus couldn't get to the gym because she was simply so tired from working a full time job and a part time job. Her eating habits reverted too. And just yesterday, she sent me a text to say she now weighs 262lbs. I felt horrible for her. All that money she paid out of pocket for the lap band and she basically has to start all over.

It made me realize that there really isn't a simple, magic, snap your fingers and poof, way to lose weight. It will take hard work, dedication, changing mind and lifestyle, and sticking to it. Oh I know things will get in the way and instead of eating something good, I'll eat my ol' comfort foods. I'll get upset at what I did and then return to what I hope is becoming a positive and successful lifestyle change.

Fat is funny. Your body wants to keep it. My best friend continues to tell me that I have to eat or my body will think I'm starving it and it will cling to the fat like it's green on grass. It won't let it go.
I never understood that. For years, when I worked, I existed on 1 meal a day and the rare occasion of 2/day. Now that I'm unable to work, thus am less active, I'm so afraid that if I eat more than once a day, I'll gain.
But, I'm finding that's not true. My fears are being debunked. I track my food. Following the guidelines as closely as possible, I have found that I have lost weight.

Now, I am hopeful about losing weight. Even my Mother has told me she will not sabotage my diet as she has also struggled with obesity. She always asks me what I want for Sunday lunch because I eat lunch with my parents on Sunday. When she asked me this time, I told her, "Let me think about it and I'll get back to you" then I told her, baked chicken and whatever else she wants to fix. I'll be content with baked chicken.

I know I'll have setbacks. But, I think my mindset is going in the correct direction. While I still want those fat-filled, oh-so-yummy foods, I realize that the constant eating of them is what has gotten me fat. It's crazy, I know, to be 45 and just come to the realization that FAT is the only thing that loves you being fat. I don't want to be fat anymore...I want to be PHAT (Pretty Hot and Tempting)!
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    I realize that I am posting on old blogs for you but it's great to see your progress from the beginning to now.
    2241 days ago
    great blog. emoticon
    2261 days ago
    It is a wonderful feeling when you finally get to start losing those pounds. I have been fighting to keep 5 pounds off for the past month. But I have lost 40 pounds already, so I am not sweating it right now. I am currenlty revamping my exercise schedule and my eating so I can get the most out of my workouts and nutrition.

    Today I am off to buy protein powder so I am sure to get my protein in every day, and to get some healthy bits for my trail mix instead of the sugar filled gunk that you can buy in large quantities and where everything is covered in sugar. Can't stand that. I ate a huge back in 2 days - it was 22 servings at 120 cals and 22 carbs per serving. I was almost ill when I realized what I had done. But who can eat a quarter cup of trail mix and be satisfied? Not me!

    But I am also going to buy single serving size bags and bag it all up in appropriate servings so I won't eat mindlessly anymore.

    So glad you are seeing the light. Took me over a month to lose anything at all, and then all of a sudden it was 7 pounds gone! It was just he kick in the pants that I needed.
    2261 days ago
  • DDLM13
    congrats on the 2 lbs, i know someone who got lap band done to lost twenty pounds and the gained it back and that taught me alot the basic thing everyone knows........ eat right and move.
    2261 days ago
    So glad you have seen a loss. It is so encouraging, and you are right that there is no short cut to being svelte.
    2261 days ago
  • BEEJAY49
    Congratulations on the weight loss! Woohoo! All those fancy get thin quick things won't work unless you change your lifestyle and eat healthy and do some exercising even if it is just walking. I'm sorry for your friend, the healthy lifestyle is what she needs to learn now just like you are doing! I'm proud of you! Keep up the great work! :) Love you! HUGS!
    2261 days ago
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