Friday, January 11, 2013
it's one of those "get in, buckle up, hang on and shut up" times. sometimes life takes me on a ride that's scary, out of control, and just plain not fun. there are times when i can tell myself, "just throw your arms up in the air, yell 'wahoooo' and pretend it's a roller coaster." for now, i'm just white-knuckling it, and waiting for this particular ride to end.
my father in law was diagnosed with leukemia new year's day, and he just days to live. it's a lot to take in, and take on, but we are doing our best, trusting God will sustain us, and there will come a time when we can get off the ride and find our footing again.
it's challenging to connect with my pollyanna side, but i am doing my gratitude journal, and finding things to be thankful for....some days it feels pretty lame, but i am thankful for the commitment i made...i didn't know what was waiting for me in the new year, or i might not have done this. i know that good and bad comes from every situation, but we can skew it in our mind, and MAKE it one thing or the other, depending on how we choose to continually think about things. i am keeping a careful watch, and need to re-orient regularly, but i will keep moving forward.