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Friday, January 11, 2013

well this is the first blog I ever wrote.
I am so excited to have found spark people. One thing that has always helped me in my 30+ years trying to get to a healthy weight and maintain it is reading success stories. Reading the blogs of people who have gone through the same challenges and succeeded is what I need to be successful. While it is obvious to the world that I am extremely obese, I have only spoken honestly about it with a few close friends. the forums and teams are giving me an opportunity to be honest and understood without feeling ashamed.
My two sons - 18 and 21 have lived with an overweight mother all their life. I am tired of being embarrassed at school functions knowing I was the fattest mom there. And I know they get embarrassed too. After seeing my family picture at Xmas from my niece's wedding I knew this couldn't wait anymore. It looked like I had a card table stuck under the back of my dress..
In September I was fired from my job as a clinical social worker of 26 years. Was it fair- no, but it doesn't matter. I was forced to confront that despite my skills what interviewers see is an extremely overweight woman. I know I need to get healthier to make a physical impression that matches how I present verbally. After three months, I believe this time was given to me to make the changes I need to do to become healthy.
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    I am so happy that you are here! Best wishes on your journey.
    1982 days ago
    I lost my job too. I have decided to lose weight for a number of reasons and one of them is to make a better impression at interviews. No fun being over 50 and looking for work. My kids have always had a fat mom too. I would like to NOT be the biggest one in the room when I go places.
    1983 days ago
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    Thanks so much to lynn and bamajan. The support and the fact tha emoticon emoticon t u took the time to read my post is wonderful. I believe I am on the road to healthy
    1983 days ago
    Hi Marianne---

    The best words of support are right here---from Lynn! We often treat others much better than ourselves. It is your time now to focus on your well-being and good health. I am sure that your sons are proud of you, but most of all, you can be proud of YOU. --- I am blessed to have found SparkPeople, The encouraging folks here offer understanding and practical advice. It takes effort to succeed, but the rewards will come to us! Yes, you CAN DO IT!
    1983 days ago
    emoticon You CAN do this. I heard success stories for years from people who said, "If I can do this, anyone can do this". But "anyone" always seemed to exclude me. Until I decided to start getting super honest. Painfully honest. I'm a social worker, too, so you're going to understand this... when we are talking to clients with life-harming habits, one of the first things we know they have to do it be honest about it right? So now is the time for you to focus all that love and attention that you've been giving everyone else for 26 years on yourself. Social work is a draining, exhausting profession at times. We take care of everyone else, and often ignore the ways that we ourselves are broken. I can't wait to support and encourage you on this journey. emoticon
    1983 days ago
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