Sort Of Almost Not About My Health
Friday, January 11, 2013
Good Evening All!
I am trying to make an effort to write a blog that is not entirely about my health, but first, I will update on my health. :)
Tomorrow is my preoperative appointment and then about a week later is my first surgery, then if that works a couple weeks after that will be my second surgery. Sadly this is basically just a hold over, something that we are hoping will stabilize me enough to put off the big stuff for a while. I am not holding my breath that it will work, but the spark of hope remains none the less. I am finally on some heavy duty painkillers to help me get through each day, I hate them, but I am thankful for them none the less. I am so looking forwards to spending lots of time in the hospital! Ha! I also have a doctors appointment next week with yet another doctor (this will be my fourth addition), this time a gynecologist, to begin the investigation into what is wrong with my inner workings in that respect. Goodness, never seems to end.
Anyway, on the weight loss front things have actually been going in a much better direction. Since I started being able to eat again, I basically ate everything in sight and gained a terrible amount of weight in a short period of time, but I am getting on the track again now. I have begun exercising again, which has been wonderful. Doing short 20-30 minute cardio sessions along with the strength videos from the January Jumpstart challenge. I have also been working steadily to bring down my daily calories and eat more healthfully. Even though my body insists on consistently malfunctioning, I am still going to try to be as healthy and fit as I can possibly be while dealing with all of this.
I have recently fallen in love with yet another television series, I finally gave in to the pressure from certain friends and gave Doctor Who a try. I said I would watch the first season just so that I could say I gave it a real shot. Well...I couldn't stop. It is absolutely one of the most addicting shows I have ever watched, you just get into the stories and the characters and you can't stop! Though admittedly I have been thankful for the distraction. I discovered the show right around the time I found out I was going to be having these upcoming surgeries, so it has been nice to lose myself in it for a few hours when I need to.
I am still not seeing anyone, though honestly that is more of my own choosing. The last thing that I need to add to my life right now is the drama of a boyfriend. Ha! Can you even imagine!? I am ok with it though. I would like to meet a nice fella, but God is good and He has the right guy somewhere out there. Personally I can't wait to meet him, I am sure he will be wonderful.
Speaking of God, things have been difficult lately. This time of upheaval and repeated health troubles has really put my faith under the microscope. I find myself bouncing between trusting and being angry, between knowing and struggling. I am thankful to serve a patient and loving God, who will carry me through this even when I spend half the time kicking and screaming.
Well, I managed to make this sort of almost not about my health. Haha! Hey, I tried! For now I must be off to bed, have an early morning and a long day ahead.
Much love and many hugs to all of you!