Thursday, January 10, 2013
The goal weight I set- 160 lbs. I set it at the beginning of 2012 hoping to get there by August of 2012. Well on February 8th 2012 I reached my "goal weight". I wasn't sure just where I wanted to be. I had thought that 160 would be perfect.
I still had curves and I looked good, but why not lose more. So I did. I ended losing another 28 lbs before I bottomed out at 132 lbs. I was beyond happy. I had never even dreamed about being that thin.
Don't get me wrong. I liked the way I looked. I could fit in a Juniors size 3, it was an amazing feeling. What wasn't an amazing feeling was being tired CONSTANTLY, endlessly hungry and to make things even worse my hair started falling out. At this point is when I had to step back, leave sparkpeople and take a real good look at myself. I realized I had taken it too far, I needed to change something.
It is funny how much harder it is to "maintain". Losing, for me, was easy. It was so easy I was to scared to stop. I felt, and in all reality still feel, that if I'm not losing I'm failing. Since my low I have put on more than 20 pounds, I was in desperate need of 10 of those pounds, the other ten, well it just tasted too good. I'm not miserable at 150 or even 155.
Ideally I would love to be closer to 140-145 but more importantly I just want to be FIT. I want to be healthy, grounded and in control. I am a mere 4 weeks out from being at, or below, my goal weight for an entire year, the same amount of time it took me to lose the weight.