Food Crisis

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Okay I'm being dramatic calling it a crisis... but it feels that way.

My mom was here to change my bandages for the last week (its really hard tying a bandage around your right armpit alone). She's stressful. That's putting it midly.

Two days ago she complained there was no food -- so I went to Walmart after work. While I'm there I called her to see if she thought of anything i should buy. She asked me to get a) butter pecan ice cream, b) cookies, and c) chips. Now I don't know about you -- but I AVOID those sections of the store. Those sections are dangerous for a food addict/overeater. So basically my mom sent an alcoholic to the liquor store just to get stuff for her and not me... so that didn't happen.

I ended up buying way too much crap. And consequently since it was in my house -- eating some of it. Now she destroyed a good part of it in her two days -- but monkey see, monkey do, monkey feel fat.

This morning she stormed off in a huff. Packed and left within ten minutes of me pissing her off. I won't get into it, other than to say my mom is crazy, she didn't mean what she said or did, and she probably feels bad for leaving the way that she did. So I need to forget it and get over her actions and remember that they do not reflect on me and I shouldn't get upset about it. She does this all the time.

Now as she was storming about, I packed all of the crap food in bags and put it with her stuff. She refused to take it. I didn't go put it in her car anyway because I wanted to avoid further bloodshed... but now I have a crap ton of bad food in my house.

I brought some of it to work... and then I ate some of it at work. I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle with this junk food. I feel dumb for even buying it in the first place... like I'm helping my mother to poison herself with food -- but I am not her parent -- so I need to let that go...

So I had a rather emotional day. And my arm hurts. Still. I see the plastic surgeon again tomorrow... We'll see what he says this week.

Tomorrow's going to be super busy. I have to drop Pippa off at the groomer. Then I have an appointment with the doc... then a salon appt... then TJ is coming down for the weekend to help me out... *sigh* I need a back massage too -- I pulled a muscle last night trying to get dressed with one arm.

I'm just going to pack it in. I have to run to Aldis for some groceries -- then I'm finally seeing Les Miz tonight with some friends.

(128 days until graduation!)
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    Sorry about all the crap, but hopefully Les Miserables will cheer you up.
    1923 days ago
    Throw it out!!! Seriously. Don't think about the money-think about your health. Just do it.

    Hang in there!!
    1924 days ago
    Given the relation between grad students and free food, the most efficient way of getting rid of it just might be taking it to work, setting it down in some common space and walking away.
    1925 days ago
  • MJ7DM33
    I agree with TATYPREZ!
    1925 days ago
    I know waisting food is bad but sometimes you just have to throw it out. You will get back from this don't worry!
    1925 days ago
    I'm sorry your mom stresses you out and then bails on you, especially when you do need help. That sucks.

    As for the junk food? Throw it out, buddy.

    I know, it cost money. Who cares. You have enough going on with trying to heal and do everything yourself with one arm AND concentrate on feeding yourself well. JUST TOSS IT. You can make more money. Consider the cost of whatever you're throwing out an investment in your mental health. It's okay.

    In fact, spend a little more money. Splurge on what I like to call "Lazy People Food". Now when I'm feeling low, instead of buying junk I buy stuff I have no business buying but makes me feel pampered because it saves me time and effort, instead of money - the already washed, already cut up stuff in the produce section. Oh, I'll treat myself to a pre-peeled pre cubed butternut squash to roast! Oh, already washed and pre hulled strawberries! I feel fancy and I don't eat crap.

    Do it. Go buy some already cut up melon. You only have one useful arm for crap's sake. emoticon
    1925 days ago
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