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Scared to Succeed

Thursday, January 10, 2013

I fear something. I am not sure what, success, being who I want to become or letting go of the baggage? Why I have been stuck around the 200lb mark for over a year. This is not a plateau, it is me sabotaging myself. The reason has not reveled itself to me. I take two steps forward and one step back. I have decided I cannot just sit here and complain about not losing. I am going to bucke down and see what happens. I will know the why later. Hind sight is 20/20.

2009
268lbs to 254lbs

2010 & 2011
254 to 203.4

2012
203 to 201.8

2013
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  • KENTUCKYWOMAN
    Karen, I was just like you, my own personal goal in the beginning was just to get to 200 pounds, I would get within 3 pounds and it would scare the heck out of me, I was so close to my own personal goal. I had a fear to. I know what my fear was...if I make it to 200 then everyone is going to expect me to make it to 180. It was not until I saw 199 on the scale one Saturday morning at my meeting that I then, realized....I can do this....took me 5 years to finally give myself permission to get to goal and then whatever happens, happens. Now I'm back up 25 pounds above my goal. Now I am wishing that when I hit 183 I got down to business cause 3 pounds (I think) is easier to lose than 25, but who knows. Karen, give yourself permission to be successful. YOU ARE SO WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Sorry for such a long post.
    Hugs,
    Joan
    2134 days ago
  • ARUN4ONE
    Wise advice you've given yourself! I finally decided near the end of December that I would never be "ready" to start taking charge of my health, in the sense of having everything together, and just started doing it! I noticed the more I do it, the more my thoughts and emotions line it. Guess they just need a swift kick in the you know what, lol. You can do this! I love this saying from Joyce Meyer, she says, "Do it afraid." Good for you for doing just that! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2134 days ago
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