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Tug of War (with myself)

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

There is a photo of me in my high school yearbook. I am standing to the side by myself and watching the tug of war competition. It was an exciting contest. I wanted to join in but I was afraid to be embarrassed because I was the fat girl. I didn't have any body confidence. I think how many events and opportunities I have stood by and watched when I wanted to be in there kicking up a storm. I have been self conscious for too long. I have convinced myself that I am destined to be a watcher, particularly in athletic activities. So, I believe that is my goal for the year. * I will develop and nurture body confidence. * I went to the doctor today and got an order for physical therapy. I am stopping the negative talk and building strength. It's a challenge at my age and weight (60+ and 400+). But I am sick of sidelining myself.
By the way, that 17 year old "fat girl" weighed 150 lbs. What a waste!

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    1956 days ago
  • JILL313
    This will be your Year to lose weight and get Healthier and feel better about yourself. The time is now and please don't put if off but make it a top priority as it should be. Wishing you great success this Year. Set a few doable goals to work on and achieve them then continue those but try another new Goal. You Can Do This!


    1956 days ago
  • JEANNE229
    I did the same thing in high school...it's what's in the MIND. My friends weighed 100 pounds, so at 130, I was FAT!
    1956 days ago
    Great goal!! Keep pushing forward and you will become that confident person you want to be! You can do it!!!!!
    1956 days ago
    I, too, was the fat girl in high school, afraid to do anything that would expose my body to the inevitable ridicule. I lost my weight when I was 21, but was still too stung to be around those people. I just went to my 45th high school reunion, and everyone was happily reminiscing about how much fun school was, but I remember the pain. If they remembered how cruelly they treated me back then I am sure now that they would be horrified; we were all kids back then with the attitudes of kids. As adults we can start with the attitude changes right now, not have to wait until our bodies catch up. Most people DON'T judge, we just think they do.
    1957 days ago
    Good for you for making this year your year!! You can do it! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1957 days ago
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