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Feeling it (or not)

Tuesday, January 08, 2013

So here we are! 2013

New "goals", new teams, bright ideas and clean slates. This is the YEAR!

Oh, I joined two new teams on SP, a new "challenge" in "real" life, and have the knowledge to move me to a new me.

But not one day have I really tried.

Nope. Not one.

Yes, I have lost 3 lbs this week. Dumb luck or stress.

I'm just not feeling it.

Seriously? Did I just say that? I think I may be lying to myself. Here's why:
I felt the "ouch" when I realized my WINTER coat was tight, and made me look thinner.
I felt the embarrassment when I got winded in front of my SIL when I walked up the stairs in the new house.
I felt the shame when I realized that pair of jeans I had been so excited to buy and wear not so long ago, went from fit, to muffin top, to exploded can of biscuits.

But I don't FEEL like working out, make the effort, planning, measuring, counting, tracking. I like to think of these things when I think of making weight loss/ healthy lifestyle work.

I am in a place where I feel like I should go to the Dr. about some minor things, but won't because I don't want her to be disappointed in me. But deep down I know that she wants to help me. She wants me to succeed.

It's really me that is disappointed in me.

*Deep breath*

So, I don't care.

I have several friends here that didn't "feel" like working out, did anyway-and have succeeded in their goals.

Therefore, I have to say that I don't care if I don't feel like working out. Really, I don't feel like feeling like a loser.
I don't care if I don't feel like tracking, I don't feel like buying a bigger size (my sweatshirt my DH bought me was the right size, but refused to fit--that was embarrassing for both of us)
I don't care if I don't feel like planning, I really don't feel like eating out either.

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    sounds more like depression to me. I was in a funk too, got so I started to hate everything and everyone, including myself. No one is going to help me, no one thing will magically make me thin--the only one that can help me is ME.
    So I started exercising--10 min at first--hating every aching minute. Then the next day I went 15--still hating it. After 2 weeks of this, I am now exercising at least 30 min, sometimes more a day; I love how I feel, my attitude is better, I feel so much better, I have more energy.
    Give it a try. do it for YOU.
    1918 days ago
    You know what I tell myself when I "don't feel like it"?

    Fake it 'til you make it.

    You don't HAVE to feel like doing it. Just do it. (Apologies to Nike.)

    You don't have to like it. Just do it.

    You don't have to want to. Just do it.

    You will ALWAYS be happy that you did.

    I don't feel like going to the gym, but I'm going. I inspired a co-worker to get back to the gym, and the only class she can fit in her schedule is RPM. To support her, I'm going, too, even though I don't care for that class. Because of my schedule, I'm staying late at work because there's really no time for me to go home and come back into town to the gym. Did I mention Thursday is my Friday? So, to re-cap, I'm staying late at work, going to the gym, to a class I don't care for, on a weekend night. I don't want to. I'm just doing it.

    You can just do it, too.
    1926 days ago
    I am so sorry you feel this way right now. Believe me, I understand what it is like to be on the sidelines watching everyone else on a "Spark High" achieving their goals while I am feeling defeated and want to just throw in the towel.

    Sometimes we just have to be ready or really want something badly enough. Maybe you need to simplify your goals for a while to get into the groove? Like starting with just getting your water in? Then maybe tracking and staying in your calorie ranges? And finally adding in the exercise?

    Then again, I really feel really foolish giving advice to someone that weighs 70 pounds less than me. I guess what I am trying to say is that I do not want you to give up like I obviously did years ago and end up suffering like me when I reached 270! I’m on track now and I am “feeling it”, but I have a long way to go. You CAN avoid that heartache and I hope that you do. In fact, I hope you have your “aha moment” and love yourself enough to start reaching for YOUR goals.

    I added you since we are both on “2013’s So Bright Team” emoticon . I do not know if we have anything in common other than our struggles, but I would like to offer my support.


    1927 days ago
    I really don't feel it anymore either.. but we just gotta push ourselves! Wishing you the best of luck this year with your weight loss efforts!
    1927 days ago
    I think we all have times when just don't feel like it. I have to force myself to keep going sometimes...but in the end, I'm always glad that I did.

    Keep pushing. You are worth it, you know.
    1927 days ago
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