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Where I was, Where I am, Where I want to be...

Tuesday, January 08, 2013

Some people live in the past, some people settle for what is present, some extend their arms out reaching for more. That's me, I expect more out of life and myself. I know I can live an amazing life, I know I can be the best person I've ever been. Where I was, was an alcoholic depressed person, who obtained weightloss before her wedding, then failed to cut down her alcohol intake and 4th meal cooking experiments at midnight; resulting in gaining 20 of the 40 pounds back. Now, as of today, I've lost 10 of that, putting me at 170 pounds. I have not drank alcohol in 36 days. I have lowered my blood pressure and frequency of palpitations by a huge amount, to the point where I hardly have to take my heart medication anymore. I'm sleeping better, breathing better, thinking clearer. Doing all this, is a day to day thing, my expectations are by every minute. Of course I look to the future, but the simple daily tasks of life that I must follow, go by even seconds. And it's actually saving my life. Three months ago, I truly, honestly, whole heartedly believed by the pain, discomfort, and sickening feelings that I would die before I was 30. I'm only 24. I gave myself my own death sentence in 6 years... cause of how unhealthy I felt.

So, where is this road leading? I try not to ask myself this everyday. Like I said before, I focus on today. I can't predict where tomorrow will lead, or what next month I'll be doing. I can only HOPE that this positive revolution of my life continues and flourishes. I'd like to think that by summer I reach my goal weight and fitness, that I continue my sobriety, and that I go on with achieving other life goals. Fingers crossed, but today I know I'm doing alright.

Upon all this, I would like to say, after speaking with my doctor yesterday and the nurse at the office, something hit me. So many people in this world have heart disease, lung disease, diabetes, etc. And some things so simple to losing some weight, eating healthier, not drinking or smoking can truly save your life. This is in my own experience. A in her 20s girl, who was suffering from extremely high blood pressure and palipations, is starting to be able to over come what bad habits can do to your overall health. Take advice people, is it really worth losing your life? Being in pain? Fearing death in the next 5 years? I believe if people are willing to listen, I shall spread this spark, and lend my hand to help any way I can for those to see what life is worth living for.

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    emoticon Love the inspiration!
    1964 days ago
    Hun ..You HAVE to live one day at a time....in this NEW journey in life we learn and we grow...
    you never know what tomorrow will bring.....
    Keep thinking positive....
    The weight WILL come off it just takes time....

    At 26 I weighed 200 lbs..and I'm only 4'11..depressed, did drink alcohol way to much and ate to much junk... NOW I'll be 55 next month and weigh 158...I want to lose 10 more lbs. I know I can do this with the help from all of you...We are all going through the same thing here...lets help each other.

    Congratulation on being alcohol free.... emoticon emoticon
    1964 days ago
    Thank you for sharing! I hope I can get my husband to read this!

    God bless you!
    1964 days ago
    great thoughts. Thanks.
    1965 days ago
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