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Resentment gone!

Monday, January 07, 2013

Not so long ago, I used to feel resentful whenever I heard that someone I knew had lost weight. I used to think, bully for them, but I can't do that. I used to get upset, not at myself, because I thought it was impossible for me – but at them, for succeeding where I couldn't.

Now, part of the reason that I couldn't lose weight was because of an undiagnosed thyroid problem. But another part of why I couldn't lose weight, even after the thyroid problem was corrected, was that I just didn't have the right attitude. I didn't believe it was possible, and therefore, I couldn't. Because I didn't believe it was possible, I wasn't able to take the steps towards eating healthily, holding myself accountable, planning for exercise, and making it happen.

It's been about 45 days since I renewed my commitment to Spark. And I'm so pleased to say that it's really working this time! I still have many things to learn about what works best for my body, about how many calories I need in a day, about what type of exercise feels best to me and how that affects how much I need to eat… But on balance, I'm doing great. Even though I may have days like today where I go way over my calorie range (for no other reason than that I'm hungry), I'm still engaging in lots of healthy behaviors like tracking my food, exercising, and engaging with the Spark community. These things make me feel good, and that, in turn, helps me be successful. On the whole, I feel that I am being successful – and my mirrors, my clothes, and this scale proves that I indeed, I am.

And guess what? Now, when I hear that friends of mine are losing weight, working out, and feeling good about themselves, I don't feel resentful anymore. Instead, I feel thrilled for them! I view them as inspiration. I love hearing about their success, hearing how they accomplished it, and seeing if I can incorporate any of their thoughts into my own program.

So thank you, Spark, for making me not only a healthier person, but also a happier person – and a nicer person too.
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    Great job, Hillary! You are such an inspiration to me. Hope that Hawaiian air is treating you right!

    1957 days ago
  • ACRAIG921
    It sounds like you are doing well and have a good attitude. It is hard not to resent someone when they have something great to share. It sounds like you have pushed through that and can be truly happy for the other person and hopefully they can do the same for you. Great job in your progress :)
    1963 days ago
    1963 days ago
    Great (new) attitude! I used to feel resentment sometimes too ... or just plain frustration!
    1963 days ago
  • WINGLESS98465

    I understand. Now I find myself wanting to tell people "No, you really can do it!", but all I can do is encourage them and hand them a You've Been Sparked card. :)

    You totally have the right attitude to accomplish your goals. Keep on kicking butt.

    1963 days ago
    I know what you mean. I used to feel the same way.
    The funny thing is now my best friend, sister, and Mother are now resentful of me for the same reason.

    1964 days ago
  • JESSIKA_56
    Glad to hear you are doing so well and can share in the excitement of others!
    1964 days ago
    Isn't that funny how we tend to eat when we're hungry? I am one born with a phenomonal appetite. I have to keep it at bay by continually drinking low or no calorie liquids, and eating fat and protien snacks. Don't know if there's something there that would help you, but I liked your blog entry anyway. Good luck to you, Glenn
    1964 days ago
  • ALICIA214
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    1964 days ago
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