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Looking For The Lightness

Saturday, January 05, 2013

I suffer from Depression. There I said it out loud and wrote it in my blog. To be honest, I have suffered from Depression my entire life. It actually runs in my father's family and one of our family members has committed suicide because of it. I don't take it lightly. I also refuse to let it rule my life. I remember as a child, being told that I was overly sensitive. I also remember being told to "Buck Up", "Cheer Up", Not to take things so Seriously!!! It was considered a Weakness to give in to the sadness and to cry. Because of this, and because we really didn't know at that time that Depression was a treatable condition, I think that I was in my late 40s before it was suggested that I be given an anti-depressant. The anti-depressant does help some, but I have also made it one of my goals in this journey, to Look For The Lightness, each day. It would be so easy to give in to the pain of the Depression itself and to also give in to the physical pain that I live with each day because of Osteoarthritis, two torn rotator cuffs, and recent hip pain (that could mean a replacement in the future; I HOPE NOT!) My goal is to remain as positive as I can each day by finding things that make me smile. Today, so far, I have read that a dear Spark Friend of mine is feeling better, my 5 year-old Grand-daughter is coming over this afternoon and staying over-night, and I received an email telling me about a good medical outcome from tests taken on the 13 year-old Grand-daughter of my dearest child-hood friend. All 3 things make me smile and feel lighter in spirit; and that is what I am aiming for.
My journey on Spark People will go much smoother and I will be more successful if my spirit is as light as possible. emoticon
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    Depression runs in my Fathers side of the family also. I have been on anti-depressants in the past, which most of the drugs cause weight gain and that adds to the depression. I have found that exercise and vitamins (B Complex and Magnesium) help me a great deal.

    I pray that God brings lots of lightness into your life.

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  • 123ELAINE456
    Always look for the Brighter Side and Things In Life. We have Awesome Sunsets, Beautiful Pictures of Nature on Lands, Seas and Sky. God is Watching Over Us Everyday and helping us through our Journey Of Life. We Have a Good God. God Bless You and Have a Wonderful Week. Enjoy your time with your GrandDaughter too. I suffer from Depression too. Meds does not help. Have Fun. Take Care.
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    At the end of the day, I am glad some things put a smile back on your face! emoticon
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  • GRAMMIE1959
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    I can relate to the physical pain. I don't have clinical depression but i struggle with at times.Doesn't usually last too long. emoticon emoticon
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    Warm hugs coming your way! Enjoy the visit with your granddaughter. I admire your courage in talking about what is going on with you and your depression. So many just don't want to deal with it. Thank you for your honesty.

    I don't have depression, but do have family members who do and it is such a difficult thing to handle . . . you're doing it!
    1934 days ago
    Thanks for sharing your testimony. I think it's brave and smart to recognize a problem and deal with it versus ignore it.
    1934 days ago
    Oh, Patti, I too suffer from depression, and I bless the day the doctor prescribed my meds. I was taking Tamoxifen, which gave me terrible hot flashes, and she prescribed the anti-depressent to help with the hot flashes. What a difference this has made in my life! I never even realized I was depressed until then. Even knowing it is a medical condition doesn't make it easier to live with, and I think you have a much more serious case than I. I will keep you in my prayers and pray that you alwasy find the light!
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  • FLAME42
    You always brighten my day! I liked the "lightness" you have found today. You have made life sooo much better for so many of the people you have had contact with in your busy life. Keep thinking all the good thoughts you can, I am sending you my love and prayers.
    Just know you will have giggles this afternoon and evening! Say Hi to E from me too.
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    1934 days ago
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