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Facing facts..

Thursday, January 03, 2013

Fact: I'm writing this blog before my day gets too busy and before I even glance at Spark email. That's a rarity.

Fact: I wore my fat mom jeans yesterday because.. well, for a lot of reasons really. I needed something that fit, most of all. I'm at the very limit of squeezing into the jeans I currently have.

Fact: I've gained ~25 lbs. Since when? Well, since my lowest weight of ~225, which was who knows how long ago. The lbs started creeping back on slowly, and then I threw my hands up and said 'whatever'.

Fact: I realized this morning that I feel better than I have in quite a while. Nothing spectacular, just feeling better emotionally and physically. Not that I was a wreck or anything previously. I've had a small case of the grumples (holidays usually mean emotional turmoil, give or take) but they seem to have passed. Physically, I've felt like a giant blimp. Today I feel like a smaller blimp. It's progress.

Fact: I'm tweaking my nutrition. I've turned off the diabetic meal plan, and the Spark meal plan altogether. It's a little daunting to look at a blank nutrition page, but I'm managing these last two whole days alright LOL I'm tracking nutrition again, where I'd stopped previously. For a few days of vacation, I'd log on and track my water, but even that fell by the wayside eventually. So I'm back to that habit once again.

Fact: I'm giving paleo/primal eating a try. My version of it, anyway. I'm hanging on to some things still that likely need to go, but I'm not ready to let go quite yet. I have eliminated wheat-based foods for the most part. I've eliminated a lot of refined sugars, and a lot of processed foods. I've cut back on the amount of fruit I'm eating, and upped the amount of veggies and meat. I'm keeping dairy, although not quite as much as before.

Fact: I've noticed that my complexion has improved. I'm adding more pastured butter and coconut oil to my cooking, and it's not bombing my face with breakouts. I even made it through TOM without any major flare-ups. That's highly unusual. Don't get me wrong, I'm no porcelain-cheeked cherub or anything like that, but my skin IS clearer.

Fact: I'm reading and researching more about paleo/primal eating. I'll tracking my nutrition, and I'm willing to put up with the admonishments from the daily nutritional analysis that I'm getting too much fat and not enough carbs. I'm willing to experiment with this way of eating to see what it does for me, if anything. I was quite successful when I did the Reboot vegan diet for 2 weeks. This is sort of like that, only with tasty meat included! Hard to argue with that.

Fact: I'm here. I wasn't for a while, or barely. Now though, I'm here. I'm one of those people who used the stroke of Midnight on Jan. 1 as a point of resuming my efforts. So shoot me.

Fact: I have a Fitbit One! My BodyBugg subscription expired, and I decided to try new technology. It was exciting that it could be hooked into SparkPeople, so that's what I've done. So far, I'm quite fond of the little device. It's much more unobtrusive, tucked away in my bra rather than on my arm. The Dashboard is interesting and fun to examine. There are a few features of the BB website that I miss, but as I get to know the FB dashboard more, I may find those neat things there as well. Bill has been so impressed with the information I'm gaining from the FB, he's decided he'd like the Fitbit Zip for himself. Done!

Fact: I'm still loving walking the kennel kids, and having them waiting for us over the holiday break kept us moving more than we would have ordinarily. We walked kennel kids early Christmas morning, and New Year's Day morning. We also walked our own kids, and they were quite appreciative and prancy! What a wonderful way to start off our year. Those pups touch my heart so much, and I always have my favorites who I simply adore, and who I cry over whenever they get adopted. Happy tears for them and high hopes for their forever homes and families.

Fact: I liked recording my nutrition and fitness data several months ago and I think I'm going to give that a try again. It helps seeing it out in the open. As neat as the Fitbit is, I'm not sure how I feel about not having to manually enter my activities for the day. Of course, it helps to HAVE activities to record. I'm sure I'll get it all sorted out to my satisfaction soon.

Fact: This has gone on long enough. I think I'm mostly caught up. I'm sure if I've forgotten anything, I can always post another blog. Neat concept!

Nutrition, Wed. Jan 2:
Morning Coffee
Kirkland Daily Multivitamin, 1 serving 0
EAS 100% Whey Protein, 0.5 serving 65
Regular Coffee, 2 cup (8 fl oz) 5
Coffee Mate, 6 tbsp 90
Calories: 160

Egg, fresh, 2 large 140
Coconut Oil, 2 tbsp 234
Broccoli, fresh, 0.5 cup, chopped 12
Cauliflower, raw, 0.5 cup 13
Zucchini, 0.5 cup, sliced 14
Peppers, sweet, red, fresh, 0.5 cup, chopped 20
Calories: 434

Grapes, 20 grape, seedless 39
Sauerkraut, 1 cup 27
Pork, fresh, loin, top loin (roasts), cooked, roasted, 5 oz 275
Calories: 341

Afternoon Snack
Regular Coffee, 2 cup (8 fl oz) 5
Coffee Mate, 6 tbsp 90
Zoi Greek Yogurt - Honey, 1 serving 240
Calories: 335

Viva Fat Free Cottage Cheese, 0.5 cup 70
MAKEOVER: Garden Vegetable Frittata with Sausage 1 serving 487
Calories: 557

Evening Snack
Chicken Breast (cooked), no skin, 4 ounces 136
Calories: 136

Daily Calories Total: 1,962
Calorie Range per SparkPeople - 1740 - 2090*
* This is for a goal of losing 1 lb a week, to reach 199 by the second week of January, 2014.

Calories Differential Report:
Eaten 1,962
BMR* 2,217
Exercise 768
Total Burned 2,985
Differential -1,023

Here's to feeling less anxious, more in control, more determined, less dejected.
Here's to feeling good. May we all.
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    I know exactly how you feel. I too used the New Year as a starting point, but I do not call this a resolution. I think that word is makes me think of things that people promise and don't fulfill.

    Good luck on your journey back to running fitness and a healthy lifestyle! I love my Fitbit too!

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    3083 days ago
    Sorry that your were feeling down, that you gave up temporarily sorry you gain weight back. They all seem to go together for me too. I too have been feeling down, not inspired to do anything for myself and gained weight back in June and never lost it. Not to mention I never hit my goal weight either

    I am a click away if you need me.

    hugs, Anne
    3084 days ago
    Yep, I've gotta get back in the groove of paleo/primal; I've cut myself major slack in view of recent personal stress/upheaval...
    But I've gained back every hard- fought ounce of what I had so painstakingly peeled off & can barely zip my size 16 jeans. Gotta blog about the discouraging experience of shopping w/old buddy J today (she wanted to buy me "something that looked good" as my Xmas present to which I answered "Good luck with that!")
    3084 days ago
    Welcome back!!! I have a fit bit too. I feel a lot of positivity going OK in your blog and around spark people.....let's do it!
    3084 days ago
    Fact: You came back to Spark! You sound wonderful
    3085 days ago
    Woo hoo! Kudos to you girlfriend! Glad you're feeling better. Walking the kennel kids sounds like a great way to get in some extra workout time. Rewarding in more ways than one...

    I'm loving my FitBit too. It's helping me in more ways than I expected. Here's to a kickin' booty new year!

    PS - One of my coworkers is a pretty die hard paleo diet guy. He lost 60 pounds with it. Seems to work well for him when he sticks to it. Apparently every now and then he caves to pizza though. LOL!
    3085 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/4/2013 8:24:04 PM
    It's great to see you around a bit more and it's even better to hear that you are feeling better! I hope that you continue to feel good and get stronger and better every day!

    Best wishes to you new plan. It's interesting to read how your skin has improved with your diet change. I'm very curious.

    Love your info. on the FB - I've been very curious about them and especially the connection to SP. It's awesome to find tools to help us along our way!

    I have missed you! Have a wonderful rest of your week and TGIF!
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    Oh, and because we've been a little short on supply of this (at least up here)
    3085 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/4/2013 3:22:42 PM
    Fact: you sound great! Way to go! emoticon
    3085 days ago
  • BROOKIE389
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    3085 days ago
    Loved your blog! I'm right with you on the stroke of midnight pointing me back to sparkpeople. emoticon emoticon
    3085 days ago
  • GAYLEP67
    It never ceases to amaze me how on par we are with each other sometimes. Must be that 1/3 of the brain thing... Selfishly I'm so glad you're back since I am too. We both did this before Candy and we'll do it again. We'll mix some of the tried and tested tools that we used and we'll find some new ways to reach our goals as well. Just glad to know that you'll be there (about 2600 miles away!) doing this with me!
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    3086 days ago
    I've missed you but knew you said holidays would be quiet here.

    I too am re-evaluating things. I have a lot of facts to face but I don't think I'm brave enough to post them here.

    I'm excited about your Fitbit. A lot of people are posting about them. I might have to look into them.

    Looking forward to our journey (sort of) together! Keep me posted.

    3086 days ago
    wow good job!! i have a fitbit on the way as a Christmas present from my son. hope i like it as much as you!! my bugg subscription doesnt run out till june.
    3086 days ago
    Missed your blogs and glad to see that your back. emoticon

    My Christmas present to myself was a fitbit one and so far I'm liking the tracking. Just have to find more ways to incorporated moving through out the day so I'm not stuck at my desk.

    Wishing you a Happy New Year and much success.

    3086 days ago
    Great blog!! You will be happy to go back and look at this in Dec 2013 to see how for you have come!!

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    3086 days ago
    I had to giggle over the "feel like a giant blimp" comment - not at, but with you. That's exactly how I've felt lately and you said it so simply!! Here's to feeling a little less like a blimp as the new year progresses.

    I am happy that you are feeling up and ready to go (holidays are a challenge!). And it's so great you have the kids to keep you moving!

    I did the low carb thing for a bit and just deleted the carb tracking and fat tracking here on SP (you can get rid of them, and get them back). Cause I didn't want to be "annoyed" with the daily "you're over" stuff. Just a thought.

    Let's get moving this year!!
    3086 days ago
    Like Dr Sheehan said, "We are each an experiment of one."

    I say glad to hear you're feeling better and back..and best of luck finding what works best for you!

    And I have to say, thanks for the support on my blog about angel of belief/devil of doubt.. ;)
    3086 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/3/2013 1:32:09 PM
    emoticon Blog! A true weight loss/fitness journey doesn't have a beginning and end - it is generally a long, winding rode of self-discovery, complete with bumps in the road, missed directions, and that occassional easy stretch where is all sees to come together (I don't know much about that stretch ;-) !) I really enjoy following your journey, and reading about the different things you have tried. It is all leading you to success - just emoticon
    3086 days ago
    So glad to hear you are feeling better and finding things that work for you. I've heard good things about the Fitbit, I may eventually move to that (since it is so much less obtrusive and doesn't have a monthly fee), dunno. We have to try different things until we find what works for us--and that changes as we go along. I'm rooting for you to make 2013 awesome, and I'm looking forward to seeing you again in May hopefully!

    3086 days ago
  • DOUGZ69
    Congratulations! Of everything I read above, the one overwhelming message I heard is "I'm back!" I think that's the key. Many nutrition plans and things will work for us but we have to be engaged..."I'm back!" Good job!
    3086 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8532529
    Candi...I'm with you I've gained back 25, as well. I'm climbing back on board one day at a time. So glad you have your fur babies to encourage you! Hugs sistah...we can do this!
    3086 days ago
    I am not emotionally whole enough to respond with more than a woohoo, but woohoo anyways! One question: have you used the alarm function on the fitbit one? If so, how do you like it?
    3086 days ago
    Nothing wrong with experimenting with new diets! I've heard good things about paleo.

    I also turned off the diabetes meal plan.

    Glad to see you aren't going to be defeated by regaining some weight. Keep your eyes on the goal, keep doing what you can, and you'll accomplish all of your goals!

    3086 days ago
  • BARBIE1967
    I loved your blog. Thank you so much for sharing. I too need to get back to journaling my food and get back on the wagon. Happy New year.
    3086 days ago
    Yay, I'm all for feeling good and it looks like you're well on your way to it as well. Great job on articulating where you've been and where you want to be. We all fall into slumps sometimes, the fact that you can pick yourself up and brush yourself off is fantastic. Hope you have a wonderful 2013!
    3086 days ago
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