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Thursday, January 03, 2013

how sad is it that every time I turn to my "Spark Page" I'm still wanting to lose the same 50 lbs? Its not that I lose and gain... I just never lose. If anything I gain a little more each time I check back. This is going on since 2008. Hello?

Every day, I'm aware of my weight, my size and how I look compared to how I want to look. Everyday I pack a frozen dinner and salad for lunch, and everyday I walk my dog, despite the pain in my hip and back. Everyday I have good intentions. That's the key... I have good intentions, but not good follow-through. If I were seriously trying to lose this weight I would be done by now, I would be maintaining, I would be struggling to lose/keep off those dreaded last what is it?

I'm not happy, I'm not settling, I'm not comfortable in social settings, I'm embarrassed to see old friends, I'm feel unattractive, what is it that keeps me from achieving my weight loss? Is it the fear of losing it only to gain it all back? Is it the fear of not being happy like I thought I would be? Am I lazy and I dont want to fight anymore? WHAT IS IT?

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    Good for you! Having someone to be accountable to 'in the flesh' will help.
    I'm not sure what really keeps us from doing what we know we need to, but I'm the same way. I was on Spark for 3 years before it really sunk in that all the exercise in the world is not going to help as long as I keep eating all day. I finally realized that I NEVER feel hungry because I'm ALWAYS eating. It's ridiculous. I finally got it together and lost about 15 pounds but gained back a few over the last 3 or 4 months. My jeans got pretty tight and I finally have gotten 2 days within calorie range. I'm hanging on by a thread but it gets easier all the time. (Well, a LITTLE easier.)
    1969 days ago
  • JENNY68123
    You all are great, I'm Going to my first Weight Watchers meeting on Monday (not because it's "Monday" but b/c it's the only day with the times I can go) I tried to do WW on-line but for some reason I need to be accountable, I need that human look of "are you serious" when I get on the scale. That goes 2 ways... you lost how much... are you serious? and you gained how much... are you serious!!! Really. Thanks again for reassurance that I'm not in this alone.

    1969 days ago
    Positive plans+ positive actions is what gets us our Positive results We all have to come to a point when it finally sinks in we can't just wish for change we have to make it happen. Sounds like your there friend so get those plans and put them into action..... emoticon
    1969 days ago
    OMG, you are me! Almost exactly - except I need to lose more than 50. Probably more like 70. I am having leg/back issues, too. Ugh.

    Right now, I've had a great day eating, exercised, and I'm thinking about eating more. At 10:30 pm. I need to just go to bed. This is the key. Don't eat what we don't need to eat. Move more, sleep more, eat less.

    We WILL do this!
    1969 days ago
  • JENNY68123
    Thank you for the encouragements .
    1969 days ago
    I had a lot of "false starts" for years before I finally took the plunge.

    I had to hit rock bottom first. Maybe you just haven't gotten to that point yet?

    When I first came to this site I spent a lot of time looking at the spark pages of the successful people here. It was very inspirational for me.

    You can do it! And when you're ready you will do it!
    1969 days ago
    Looking at losing 50 ponds is a LOT. It's easier to break that goal up into baby steps. Like- "I am going to lose 1-2 pounds a week. I will do this by drinking water, exercising at least 10 minutes, and tracking my food so I can keep track of my goals better.". It isn't easy to lose weight, but it isn't easy to be heavy either. You are worth it; you can do this. Today's a new day and a fresh start. Go for it. If you goof up- just decide that you are not going to let it stop you. We are all in this together and we can do it! emoticon
    1969 days ago
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