I have lost faith in myself.
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
well, i am back on here. i have gained 30 pounds and i dont believe in myself anymore. whether it be meds, or stress, or whatever, i somehow have managed to stuff my face with so much food over the last 140 days. i am trying to get back there. where i was before whatever happened. i dont even know what happened. at first i blamed the baby weight, then i blamed the foot pain, then i blamed the holidays. i lost the baby weight, i have severe foot aches (because of weight, hole and a rock place right?) and now the holidays are over. so i am trying this thing and i guess its a good thing that i am trying to get back on the horse for another ride right? i know this, its not being depressed. whats to be depressed about? i have all the support i need from family and friends. this is the most honest blog/post i have written.