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2012-The first year I kept my New Year's resolution!

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

I have always been someone who loves planning and making lists, so every New Years I've made a list of resolutions a mile long. I have never ever succeeded at any of these resolutions until last year. As with most people, losing weight was always at the top of my list. I cannot tell you how good it feels to have finally accomplished a goal I set for myself. I am the queen of broken promises (to myself).

In June, something finally snapped. I was making yet another vain attempt at losing weight and sabotaging myself by binge-ing on pasta and ice cream day after day. I had cravings so bad that I could hardly function from the anxiety. I remember literally breaking down into tears, so angry that I had allowed myself to get this heavy. That was my breaking point. Nothing poignant, no health scare or embarrassing moment, just the realization that I was better than this. I had to hold myself accountable and come to grips with the fact that I had to take control and work harder if I wanted the dream of being healthy to become a reality. There is no magic pill, no magic surgery, no matter how you go about it you have to work hard and learn to delay gratification.

I am still struggling, especially over the Christmas holiday. I've not gained any weight, but I am plagued with the cravings I worked so hard to rid myself of. I see now how easy it is to become complacent and gain the weight back. The more I lose, the harder I have to work, and I know that I am worth the effort. I always hated the saying "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels", but I can tell you that nothing tastes as good as being healthy feels. It's about way more than looking good. I had so many problems with anxiety and sometimes depression and I always blamed the weight on the way I felt. It was the other way around- I was depressed and anxious because I was overweight.

If anyone reading this is just beginning their journey, I will make you a promise that I know I can keep. I promise that you are worth the effort, and I promise that you will feel so much better 6 months or a year from now if you commit to losing the weight! Make 2013 the year you kept your resolution:)
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    447 days ago
  • RODRIGUEZ41508
    I LOVE your blog because it really speaks to my heart specially what you wrote at the last paragraph. Yes !, I want 2013 to be my Success year and just like you .... finally accomplish a goal that I set for myself. Yes, I want to be Healthy and Fit. I really don't care for the skinny part. I'd rather keep my curves and be Healthy, Fit and Toned....that's what I'm aiming for :)
    Thank you for this inspiring and motivational blog.
    YOU ROCK !!!!!!! and a
    HUGE CONGRATULATIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    HELL YEAH !!!! Be sooo
    To see your pic's and read your blog truly inspires and motivates me to emoticon Forward in my weight-loss journey .... so Thank You ;)

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    1961 days ago
    Congratulations on making 2012 your year and i hope you have great success in 2013. I am so proud of you and for you emoticon
    1964 days ago
    I am just SO PROUD of you!!!! 2012 was a great year for you! And I know the holidays were hard, but the fact that you didn't gain is ASTOUNDING! I usually always gain at least 10-15 lbs between Thanksgiving and Christmas!
    You continue to be my hero, Krista! The realization that you are worthy of a healthy life is extraordinary! You are so worth it!!
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    1964 days ago
  • CSJ522
    This made me cry - in a good way! I could not have said it better myself. Thank you and keep up the great work.
    1965 days ago
    What you went through sounds very much like where I am right now. Thanks for sharing this. It is inspiring to think that I can get there too!
    1965 days ago
    Thanks for sharing this story. Mine has so many parallels to yours - binge-eating to cope with depression and anxiety. I re-committed myself to healthy living on January 1 & plan to avoid all those self-medicating substances (coffee, chocolate, cheese, etc). Congratulations on your progress - it is very inspiring!
    1965 days ago
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