Kraft Dinner and Heartburn
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
For some reason, I find Kraft Dinner irresistible. I have no idea why this is. But every time I make it for my kids, I want to eat it too. Made some for my son for lunch today, and I ate what he didn't. I had planned for this to be the first day back on slow carb. A number of things interfered, including that Kraft Dinner. The main culprit though, was that I was silly last night, stayed up too late, drank too much bubbly, and am ridiculously tired as a result, since I had to get up for work this morning. Being tired is making it difficult for me to make good choices. Hence the Kraft Dinner. And the sour fish candies. And having to sit on my butt and work (at home) has meant that I haven't moved around nearly as much as I normally would, and as a result I currently, at 3:23 pm, have only taken 1412 steps. It will take a miracle to get to 10000 today, given how tired I am. Actually, yesterday I didn't quite make 10000 -- I was about 400 steps short, and that's with a 5K run!
On top of all of this, I am having heartburn almost every time I eat, no matter what I eat. I take medication for heartburn, but for the last week or so, it doesn't seem to be controlling it very well. I believe the heartburn is caused by the lapband. It comes and goes because the band reacts differently depending on what's going on inside and outside of your body. For example, the band seems to self tighten in response to stress (this isn't just me saying this -- it's very common among people with a band) and that leads to food getting stuck and heartburn.
So, here's what I'm going to do. When the kids go over to their father's for the evening (in about half an hour), I'm going to take a little nap so I feel like I can function again. Then I'm going to throw out all the leftover junk food. Then I'm going to use up as many non-slow carb friendly leftovers as possible to make a final holiday dinner for my boyfriend and I. And then I'm going to make some slow carb friendly foods, like turkey salad, ham salad and hard boiled eggs so I have something quick and prepared to reach for when I'm hungry. I'm going to get in my 10 flights of stairs and aim for 5000 steps for today because I just don't think 10000 is a realistic goal for today.
And tomorrow, I'm going to call the clinic that did my lapband surgery and start a discussion with them about the possibility of getting my band removed. For some people, the lapband is a wonderful tool that really helps them be successful at losing weight and keeping it off. For me, that has turned out to not so much be the case. In fact, I think that at this point, the band is actually hindering my progress because it's preventing me from eating some foods that would be good for me and help fill me up, and it's also preventing me from being able to eat enough to feel satisfied and keep my energy level up. That in turn prompts me to eat band friendly foods -- i.e. foods that go down easily -- like sugar, chocolate, etc. I'm not keen on the idea of surgery, and even less keen if I'll have to pay for it (in which case, it would be a non-starter since I can't afford it), but I'm even less keen on living with the hassle of it anymore. So some kind of action needs to be taken.
That's the plan.