For the past 3 years we've had a tradition (my sister, daughters and I) to do our own 5K on January 1st. For the other three times it had been pouring! Today it was Beautiful but Cold! Due to some illness and scheduling problems it was just my sister and I doing it today. Having had a yo-yo-ing year my endurance wasn't where it should have been or could have been. But I was pleased with my time, 54 minutes!
As I was walking it was time to spend on reflections. I'm discouraged where I am at the end of the year. I had so many goals set for 2012, I had posters made, signs on my bathroom mirror, a vision board made and ALL the numbers figured out for where I needed to be to get out of Morbidly Obese, Obese 2, Obese, Overweight and normal.
It didn't do me any good! I did great the first quarter of the year then spent the remaining time trying to get my head on straight again and find the motivation.
In 2011 I weighed my heaviest, 325. Set tons of goals and ended up losing 8lbs.
In 2012 once again the goals were made and instead of the 112 lbs set it was 14.8.
Good news? I can at least say that over the year I still came up with a loss. Bad news? Still in the 300's, still morbidly obese....BUT...the mind set is back and I'm ready to do this!
What will be different? I feel I've fixated on all the numbers associated with weight loss too much! My goals have always been to lose XX amount of weight by a certain, date or occassion. There have been times when the special occassions have come and my goal number was met but then immediately after the number on the scale starts increasing again.
This time I'm not focusing on the numbers. I know what the ideal range for my height is. I don't need to spend every day recalculating all the different ways to get there. The true desire is to be healthy, to commit to a healthy life not just until I see a ceratin number on the scale. My goals for this year will focus on that. By focusing on the actions/habits I need to change the weight will come off and eventually I'll be out of the obese category and someday (hopefully sooner rather than later) I'll be in the normal range.
I have three simple goals for my healthy lifestyle change:
1. Follow my half-marathon training (will change that after May 11th)
2. Do at least 60 min of ST a week
3. Eat within calorie range at least 5 days a week.
Here's to a HEALTHY 2013!