There is no doubt that I am still going to make slip-ups and have a rocky beginning to my everyday routine, seeing as I was MIA for a while after my sister had a baby, but the feeling I have when I come to Sparkpeople and see all of you hard at work still... is JUST UNEXPLAINABLE. I love it.
I still get that happy-go-lucky butterflies in my stomach knowing I am back on track, with the never ending line of support we all require for a happy & healthy weight loss. Trust me I am sucking it in! The support that cannot be bought, it is felt through the same determination that we all have inside us to help eachother understand.
I had a rough beginning to my day, woke up to one of my rodent pets passed away, and I totally forgot about taking my aunt and her dog to the vet appointment, but I am still here. I am still getting over being sick, and still waiting for that monthly blessing (that girls get from mother nature) to go away- BUT I AM STILL HERE TODAY. yayy, lol.
I am going to keep my MP3 charged with my favorite dubstep music to keep me pumped wfor when i am going to exercise, and how i missed that too. All I need to do now is reset my weight tracker & goal after I go into my room and get on the dreaded scale! I still havent correctly weighted myself. I was/am scared, but I have to face the damage.
I have to get through the anger inside of gaining weight I fought so hard to lose, and then continue on with a new goal, with a new progress sheet, with a new thankfulness that I am back to tell the story of hell and back. Let me explain for all of you that havent slipped back in a while-
~Trust me, you remember real quick all the things that pushed you to the edge of finally losing weight~ The clothes that dont fit, the seriously uncomfortable double chin, the out of breath-ness, the "just feel like a blob of fat" as you sit or lay in bed, "which tends to affect the bedroom time with your significant other when you dislike yourself" The look of your face getting fatter, your insecurities went through the roof after losing so many... I can go on. Indeed.
Behold, You can save yourself the trouble. I have went back to tell you my tale, LOL. Now, seeing as I have did this for all of you, hahahaha, its time to get back on my saddle and ride into the bedroom to get on my scale, shield in hand.
I truly have a love here on spark that I want to share with you all, its just gratefulness.
In the words of the Golden girls song: "Thank you for being a friend"
update: i weighed in at 296. Thank god i did not get myself to 300. Im still over 30lbs down from my original starting weight of 333.