Betrayal

I feel like all of my blogs are super whiny and annoying but I also realize that this is what it is all about. Figuring out what makes you motivated, drives you and change what the problem is so that, you can learn to let go and change your body for the better. I would like to back track and say that I have been so good pre-Christmas week. I worked out for an hour plus a day, ate well and generally was super happy with the results I was seeing. Then Christmas came and I ate decently but I also caught a really bad cold from my students and I still haven¡¦t been able to shake it for about ten days now. It¡¦s to the point where I go to the gym try to walk on the treadmill and if I go to fast I break out into coughing fits and it¡¦s almost embarrassing. This being said I decided not to go to the gym the whole time I was sick, and wasn¡¦t careful about what I ate¡KHello eight pound gain. I know I can get it off fast once I get back into the routine but I am so mad at myself because I feel like the first opportunity I get I betray myself. I am not ok with the fact that I do that to myself.
SO here¡¦s how I plan to get myself back on track and happier with more energy.

Step 1: Nuke this cold in the butt (sweat it out and take whatever I can to get rid of it)
Step 2: Start walking again at the gym even if it is super slow (which bores me I realized).
Step 3: It¡¦s almost 2013 make changes!

Here are some resolutions I have thought of for the New Year:
-Do something at least once a week that makes myself really happy (I have been really bad about not finding personal happiness and want to change that)
-Workout at least five times a week for at least 45 minutes (I want to be working out for an hour plus a day but I don't want to discourage myself if there is times that I cannot)
-Start getting into the spark people tracking habit-Let's be honest tracking your food is the hardest part about all of this acquisition not only is it time consuming but it's annoying but I am sure the benefits far outweigh the negatives.
-Really down the water-even when you don¡¦t feel like it try to get more and more water.
-Hurry up and be down to 265 so I can get my tattoo (currently today 318)