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Saturday, December 29, 2012

Today is emoticon of my current streak!

On March 1, 2012, I decided that I was sick of being obese, unhealthy, lazy, uninspired and unmotivated. I was sick of being embarrassed by how I looked, sick of breathing hard with just the slightest bit of exertion, sick of my back and knees hurting all the time. I was so tired of being uncomfortable in my own body whether I was sitting, standing or laying down. I was tired of feeling bad ALL of the time.

I decided it was time to join my Sparkfriends Arlene and Debbie, trying to build a streak of good days in a row. I didn't know if it would work for me, or if I would be able to get beyond day one. But I knew I had to try. Doing nothing was getting me nowhere, so what did I have to lose by at least making an attempt to change things?

So I started. I was totally committed to just getting through that first day. I woke up on March first and I got out my personal journal and I planned my meals and snacks for the day. Then I went into the living room and I worked out with My Fitness Coach for Wii. I weighed 286 lbs, and was so out of shape! In less that two minutes (no exxageration) I was out of breath, sweating, and wanting to just go sit down or have a snack. It would have been so easy to quit, but I kept pushing myself. I worked out for 15 minutes, and for that entire time, I wanted to give up.

Part of me was saying "Just stop....you can try again tomorrow."

But there was another voice saying "You know that if you quit now, it will be MONTHS before you start again, and you know it!"

So I kept going, and I got through that 15 minute workout. And when I was done, there was a new feeling, one I hadn't had in a long, long time. I was PROUD of myself! I felt such a wonderful sense of accomplishment and...hope. I had worked out! I'd persevered! Yes, it was only 15 minutes, but I did it! I stood there in my living room, breathing heavy, my shirt stuck to my back from sweat, and I couldn't stop smiling. And I knew that I wanted to feel this way again!

That was the moment when my streak really began. And from that small beginning, I worked my way up to more and more days in a row. I worked my way up from 15 minutes of exercise a day to 30, to 45, to 90.

I got to day 290 of my streak two weeks ago...and then I got off track. I was disappointed in myself, but I didn't waste time beating myself up over it. I didn't let one bad day lead to two bad days or a bad week (or bad month.) I got right back on track...and this time my streak lasted for 13 days.

Yesterday, I got off track again. I binged on a LOT of food, to the point of feeling sick. And when I went to bed last night, I was feeling very remorseful and angry with myself. But today is a new day, and the start of another new streak. I got up this morning and I worked out! I did two 30 minute DDP Yoga workouts, and then I had a healthy breakfast. I planned my food for the day, and so far I have been on track. I just finished a 30 minute Zumba workout, and I feel great! Yesterday was a bad day, but it was just ONE day. Today is a good day...and yes, thats just ONE day too, but I'm determined to keep going, to day two, day three and beyond.

I don't know how long this streak will last, but one thing I do know is that I will never give up. I may fall down, but I will never stay down. I'm not the same person I was before I started streaking in March. I am strong, determined and healthy. Not perfect, but definitely making progress!

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  • SAMI199
    Progress not perfection.You are such an inspiration to me-more so when you show the determination to get back up after a fall,

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    1943 days ago
    emoticon It's Day 1 for as many times as it takes it to make it all the way to our goals. Day 1 actually means that you're not giving up.....never will! emoticon emoticon emoticon and WE WILL!!
    1943 days ago
  • DALID414
    Start over as many times as it takes, as long as you don't completely stop.
    1943 days ago
    Pixie, there's no failure indeed if you get back up! A new streak is born today. You can do it, my friend!

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    1943 days ago
  • COOKIE_AT_51
    You rock chickadee ... get back up and dust yourself off and you go ... Believe it or not I actually joined the Biggest Loser Challenge 21 ;) Yes, I actually did something! The first official weigh in is in January but there are "challenges" along the way. Should be interesting ... taking baby steps. One day at a time, that was my step for today. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1943 days ago
    Day 1 is a day to celebrate! emoticon
    1943 days ago
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    1943 days ago
    I looked up this link for you! Listen to the song!
    1943 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/29/2012 4:45:30 PM
    Keep looking and going forward, never look back.

    1943 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/29/2012 4:45:18 PM
  • KITT52
    Pixie we have those days....maybe you should plan a treat day, or a off plan day, not going over board but eating things you don't eat everyday....lots of people have a cheat day...where they have there favorite cookies, or burgers or what ever they deem they need for a cheat day...some times giving our self permission to cheat might make it less stressful...

    a few years back when I decided I could eat what ever I wanted too. just watch portions, it really changed my mind set, and soon I did not want the cheat foods or not as much....to this day I remind myself if I really want that candy or cookie I can have it.....but I have to remember to be honest with myself.....if the scale goes up I am responsible.....making that choice became easier...also I never felt deprived or that I was entitled to eat it because I was angry, sad, mad, stress bored....what ever excuse I would give myself......

    I am in control of the food....the food doesn't control me..... I tell myself positive reasons for my actions.....

    Have a Happy New Year
    1943 days ago
    The stumbles are all part of the journey. Very nice blog.
    1943 days ago
    I enjoyed reading your blog thanks for sharing! What an inspiration and how determined you are! Keep up the good work, remember YOU are worth the effort! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1943 days ago
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