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Starting Over, Again

Friday, December 28, 2012

So I just realized that I never really accomplish any of my goals. I set out with dogged determination, and at some point get bored, and just drop it. Literally. I dropped two long term relationships, dropped out of University (although I did go back 8 years ago and completed a 2 year diploma course), I dropped out when I became close to acheiving my goal of becoming a supervisor, AND I dropped out each time I felt I was making healthy choices and headway in the losing weight battle.

I have nothing but excuses, lame at best, and I NEED TO BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE! Yes, even adults have to face the consequences of their choices.

I bare my soul here and ask for guidance and support from anyone that cares to offer it. I will greatly accept any and all advice! I may not follow it, but will give open consideration to all!

I have ended the relationship ferriswheel finally, as I did some personal growth excercises and am now in a much better place than I ever hoped to be emotionally. Having the love and support of a wonderful man helps!

Now to tackle this weight loss goal. I actually took the time to go to a Personal Trainer, did the whole planning and setting goals with them, to no avail. I use my disease as an excuse for this one (I have a rare disease and it's not so much the disease as the medications that exhaust me) but I know whenever I'm active, I feel soooooo much better. So I am starting over, again. With a new goal in mind, I have the tools at my fingertips, and I WILL lose the weight this time.


Stay tuned......

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    My biggest challenge is that I simply DON'T EAT ENOUGH. I put on over 70 pounds in a month due to medication when I was a teenager, lost most of it at some point, but somehow still have that image of when I went from fairly good looking, healthy young lady to a grossly obese and bald girl :( . Not starving myself, but not eating enough for my metabolism to kick in. I recently started supplementing my food intake with Visalus and that seemed to give me the kick I've needed. Although I did gain weight to start, I did start losing, until binge drinking during the holidays got the better of me. For this I make no apologies as I feel I am on the right track now! :)

    I really like the idea of adding small things and not thinking of it as a goal, just as something I do. I will try this! I love to swim however can't do this anymore due to severe cramps I get in my legs and feet whenever the water is below a certain temperature. I tried all the pools in my city and experience the same debilitating cramps and they last for hours! I'm also handicapped so most of the excercises I do are in a sitting position. That leaves out Zumba, Salsa classes, spin classes, etc, etc.

    Jent406: Yes! You can do it! I love your idea of setting shorter term goals, easier to see the results!

    1999 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/28/2012 4:20:54 PM
  • JENT406
    Illness and medications can make it harder for us than for some people.
    I think we can look at them as obstacles or we can look at them as challenges to overcome.
    You have to love yourself enough to decide that you deserve to have what you want and to go for it.
    Make sure that your goals are small enough to be achievable. 75 pounds is too big for me and will take too long, but my goal of getting under 220 is a few pounds / weeks away and I know I can do that!
    1999 days ago
    Dear Sadiemai:

    I so understand you, I have been the same way most of my life. Drop out of college, ended so many relationships, jobs, etc
    I finally got my act together in my fifties, got married and so on. I have been thin some yars but eventually the weight comes back. I feel just like you . Everytime is the same thing. I said I will lose it this time but to no avail. I get off track again and again. I hope we both can help each other this time.
    Blessins, Ethelflavin7
    1999 days ago
    Try some of the goal setting articles on here. They may help you set goals that you can stick to. Me, they didn't work for, but a lot of people find goals just the thing.

    If you find that seeing goals through is harder, then try to create healthy habits before setting specific goals. Make it a habit to get up and go for a 10 minutes (or longer) walk after dinner. Every night. No excuses. It's not a goal, it's just something you do. Try to find activities that you love doing. Aquafit? Zumba? Salsa classes? Find exercises that you will do because you LOVE them, not because they're good for you.

    Same thing with food. If it's healthy, but tasteless, you will eventually go back to unhealthy foods. If it's easy, delicious, filling and good for you (in that order), you're more likely to stick to it! My favourite go-to dinner: preportioned salmon (3-4oz) cooked from frozen in the toaster oven (or regular oven) brushed with lime juice and pesto; 1 cup spaghetti, 1 oz goat cheese, 1 Tbsp pesto, 1 cup frozen veggies. Stir together cooked ingredients and enjoy!

    Much luck!
    1999 days ago
    1999 days ago
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