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Friday, December 28, 2012

Lately I feel like ive been riding the negative train to depression town.
I just can't get motivated. Focusing only on my failures.

I wanted so badly to get fit and look and feel good on my trip to DR. I didn't lose a pound, and my body didnt change. I still had a great time, but I hardly took any pictures and finched every time my friends did because I knew how bad I was going to look. Its made me so depressed about myself.
I know there are people way worse off than I am, and I try so hard not to focus on myself but I cant break this cycle of self loathing.

My mother is smaller than I am now. I am SO proud of her and happy for her finally being where she wants to be and being healthy and happy.
I want to be like that.
I just feel like no matter what I do I am a failure.

I know its just baby steps.
Small goals.

I KNOW i need to do this for me.
I dont know what to do though.

help :(
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  • BAZOOKABOBCAT
    Mama, it's true other people have it worse. But just because they do doesn't mean that what you're feeling right now isn't real and isn't HARD. We've all been there, no matter what size we are.

    You are gorgeous and your weight isn't the only factor to that, nor is it the most important.

    If you've been working hard and nothing has changed, I suggest a trip to the doctor. Maybe there's something hormonal going on. There's only so much you can do if your body refuses to work with you. Don't give up.
    2144 days ago
  • TENOR4COUNTS
    I agree with NANCYPAT1 that you need to stop viewing the glass as half empty, and start seeing it as half full! Look at every situation and problem from a higher perspective. There is something to celebrate in everything. Like the person who had a bad accident and their car was totalled, but they were thankful no one was injured.

    Keep trying and you WILL see things to celebrate every day!!

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    2146 days ago
  • NANCYPAT1
    First, STOP and give yourself a HUG. I love that you had FUN. THAT is important. Now, how do you do this thing? For me the most useful tip I ever received was to work for PROGRESS instead of perfection. My mantra has been for quite a while the same thing - "IS IT BETTER THAN IT WOULD HAVE BEEN?" Think about how DOABLE that is. If you normally eat a 16 oz steak and tonight you order the 10 oz. steak - that is a HUGE improvement. Don't beat yourself up over the fact that it is NOT a 4 oz portion of steak, CELEBRATE that it is NOT A 16 OZ. portion. The same is true for those sweet indulgences - one doughnut is BETTER than 3 and maybe today you had ONE and tomorrow or next week you will say, "No thanks, I think I will skip the doughnut." Doing this for you means loving YOU enough to take the time to make a plan and to take care of YOU. FIT YOUR PLAN TO YOU.
    2146 days ago
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