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Thursday, December 27, 2012

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People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.

Joseph Fort Newton

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Christmas is the times when I think a lot about surface – through twelve step meetings I have learned a lot about what really has been going on behind a lot of "christmas walls" - the result has been that people hate christmas and start getting depressed in early december.

I have better experiences, I also have the expeience that people are not dangerous, it is nice to get new friends and most people like to work together. To me the problems has almost been the opposite - I need some walls to keep my codepandany on a healthy level. When I have a healthy attitude with codependancy, I do not have to isolate to take care of myself and my needs. A constant work to find balance.

I got up tonight and thought the time was ten to eight, thought I overslept. Until I came to the computer and noticed that it was 02.22...I had held my wristwatch upside down.... went back to bed and got up again at sic o clock. I have two workdays before weekend, feels kind of all right!
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    You seem to be determined to stay on track with the necessary walls that you have put up. Enjoy the rest of your work week!
    1999 days ago
    I certainly appreciate your thoughts and feelings that you write about here.
    It is very difficult for me to see boundaries, and I was acutely aware of that yesterday, when I started my Spark Page, and I noticed how much of a trigger things were for me.
    I am grateful for another day. Grateful for you, MEDDYPEDDY and all who come here.
    Today I will try to discuss some of my worries and concerns in therapy.
    One Day at a Time..... emoticon emoticon
    1999 days ago
    Life is about balance! For me, it takes planning; it doesn't come easily. The 12 steps have helped me enormously as has the years of support I had and shared in alanon. I live alone, but certainly not lonely. emoticon
    1999 days ago
    I think you're so right about "needed walls" - awareness makes the difference, I guess, since if there are some you put in place because it keeps you mentally and emotionally healthy, it's to the good, ain't? You maintain them by choice, knowing you have them and for a reason. A sort of custom-made eightfold fence...

    1999 days ago
    I hope you were able to get back to sleep!
    I understand about the work you need to do regarding your boundaries.
    1999 days ago
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