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Where'd I go?

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

I just realized that I sort of stopped my goal tracking and disappeared from the Sparkiverse. Here's why... I've had a lot on my mind lately. First, my engagement is off and we broke up. Which sucks, but is probably for the best. Also, my brother's stuff is stressing me out (won't go into detail here, but if you are close to me, you know why. If not, ask me on FB or text me). I was out of town for a while visiting a friend, and then I went to see my family for the holidays.

I am losing a lot of weight. I stopped exercising, and I am just not eating nearly as much, and I know it's probably not good, but I have no appetite. I am not anorexic or anything...I would say I am probably eating 1000-1500 cal per day, but I don't really know since I haven't tracked it lately. I assume my eating will go back to normal eventually. And I know I will exercise again. Just, trying to deal with everything right now, emotionally. Sort of proud of myself for not slipping into my old habits of eating everything in sight to numb out the pain, but I also realize that I need to be eating more often. And more nutritious things. Balance needs to be struck.

So yeah... weight goals don't have nearly as much meaning to me right now, but I did hit one: 349, which is 70 lbs down from my starting weight (hit for the second time this year). I am currently 347.6, which is my lowest weight of the year. Last year at this time, I was in the upper 380's, so that's pretty good. Except, I want a faster pace for next year. I plan to be nearing the 250 mark come next Christmas.

Anyway, I will be around. I will post more when I find the motivation to do so.

Update: I am on a journey of self-discovery. I am realizing a lot of things about myself and I will be updating with a blog in the somewhat-near future. Anyway, I am feeling very positive, so please don't worry about me, and thank you all for your kind words. emoticon
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    Hiya Jamie...although you have been going through a lot in the last while, I know you are going to get through it because you are so awesome!
    I'm sorry I haven't been around to encourage you, I have been going through some stuff myself but I am trying to get back into Spark.
    There is strength in numbers!

    emoticon ~D
    1963 days ago
    Welcome Back! I'm finally back after the same overwhelming life business. Hope we can keep eachother on track :)
    1965 days ago
  • PANDAS10
    I hope things are going alright; and I look forward to your blogs! Well wishes for the New Year!
    1968 days ago
    1974 days ago
    Glad you're back and I hope life calms down soon
    1975 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear about what happened. I totally understand, weight is not an issue right now. Emotional traumas like this remind you what is truly important.

    I wish you all the best, and when you have recovered I hope you will continue on your healthy journey.

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    1975 days ago
    I sorta got run over by life lately as well and am just finding my way back into Sparks trying to catch up with my teams and Spark buddies. Great that you are losing the weight though yes, be careful to do it in a healthy manner....Let's focus on taking care of ourselves this new year shall we??? Be blessed!!!!!

    1975 days ago
    emoticon I am sorry you're going through so much :( Great job not going back to your old ways ! You'll come back around to spark after things settle down , I'm sure :) emoticon
    1975 days ago
  • KIPPER15
    emoticon Holidays and emotional stress can make a mess of life without the Spark life. You have a new year to look forward to. Wishing you the best.
    1975 days ago
    I'm sorry about your break up and glad to hear that you didn't go back to old habits. It will get better, keep your head up.. emoticon
    1975 days ago
    I'm sorry dear one. :(
    1975 days ago
    I can emphasize. I am at the same point of life being so overbearing you just can't seem to exercise, either by choice or time available. Just take things one at a time. And I'm so sorry to hear you broke up. I hope it was for the best.
    1976 days ago
    I am sorry things did not work out,Jamie. I understand completely given the circumstances. But look at how you are handling it. You are planning for a positive outcome in pursuit of your goals.Even during this stressful and emotional time. Take some time to yourself,but keep the big picture in mind. Yourself. emoticon emoticon
    1976 days ago
    emoticon I am glad that you are here, and you seem to have a pretty good handle on things - Attitude Wise. It is as BABEINWAITING said "A Bump In The Road" Spark Friends make good shock absorbers as we encounter the "Bumps" of Life.
    1976 days ago
  • _BABE_
    This is what one would term a bump in the of many to come. I hope in future days you reconcile with what has gone on but just know you have support here for your weight loss facet of your life...again one of many ... emoticon
    1976 days ago
    Sorry to hear about all the emotional turmoil. I do hope 2013 will shine upon you and bring you all you derserve! emoticon

    Good job not slipping back into old habits with the eating everything in sight. emoticon
    1976 days ago
    1976 days ago
    You are doing emoticon emoticon Fortunatelly you are doing well in your calories as well. Things will level out. Keep up the awesome job ob your weight loss emoticon
    1976 days ago
    Way to go - and everything will return to normal!!! emoticon
    1976 days ago
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