Anything is possible....
Friday, December 21, 2012
Thursday morning, I attended a "Care Conference" with the Social Worker, Erin - my Physical Therapist, and Tanya my Occupational Therapist. We discussed how my therapy has been progressing and then talked about future plans.
It's a conversation that I have been avoiding - because the first time Tanya and I talked about it, I spent the rest of the afternoon staring out the window...with tears streaming down my face. Long Term Care - feels like I'm giving in and giving up and I will NEVER be ready to move in!
To soften the blow, the Social worker changed the wording to Extended Care, but it had that same affect of me "tuning her out". lol
Occupational therapy feels that I'm a strong person - not just in strength, but strong willed which is helping move forward in strengthening the muscles in my arms.
Physical therapy feels I'm on the edge of plateauing - because I have not been able to get back to where I was BEFORE Thanksgiving. I have until Dec 27th to make progress - which requires standing for 3 minutes and walking.
Walking is something that most of us take for granted - but when it's taken away, for whatever reason, it's the most difficult task to regain.
Who knew that their are rules for standing? Most people stand without thinking about it, but now I need to pull in my tush, straighten my legs, look up, find something outside the window to distract me, so I can last more than 20 seconds. And now TAKE A STEP?
Last night, as I lay upon my bed...thinking back over the events of the day and thinking about the depressing room they showed me in Long Term Care...I decided that I needed an attitude adjustment.
A weekly report was needed and Sue was my Occupational Therapist, to discuss my progress. Why have I not been able to stand? The pain in my left foot has increased and my Tendonitis seems to have gotten worse. Most days it feels like my foot is so swollen that I am walking on the side of my ankle. And there is still a HUGE fear of grabbing onto the walker.
She asked if I was willing to try to stand and place my hands on the table in front of me. Sure, I will try and I managed about 35 seconds. Next we placed a walker in front of me and wedged it between my chair and the table and again she asked if I was willing to try? Sure and I was able to stand for a bit over a minute. I took a rest and then "tried it again"...she distracted me by asking if I could read the sign outside and then told me to focus on the blue vehicle just down the street. I asked her if she could see the sign, that was beyond the blue car....and so our new game began. And that distraction enabled me to stand for 2 minutes and 26 seconds (just 6 seconds short of breaking my record).
So, why was I able to stand with Sue and not with my other therapists? Perhaps it was different expectations or the thought of getting stuck in a room I don't want - whatever it was, I will accept whole-heartedly!!
And Friday, after completing several exercises (knee squeezes, bridging, leg push-ups), the therapist wanted me back on the parallel bars to stand. The first couple tries were practice and the next one didn't last long. Take a break and then try again...
I stood up at my chair, positioned my feet underneath my body, leaned my body till my nose was over my toes, grabbed onto the parallel bars, stood and then took ONE, TWO, THREE steps... much to the surprise of everyone (including me). On my next attempt it was only ONE step...but now I know I'm slowly getting back and hopefully with continued efforts and practice, I will be able to walk easier next week, for the next updated session...
Attitude is everything and I have found that...ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE....you just have to try!!!!!!!!!!