A Morning Update
Friday, December 21, 2012
I am not giving up on this month. I don't want to just eat my way through the month just because it is the holiday season. One can always have an excuse to keep up the overeating.
I now I have talked about the anxiety issues that I have had. I am going to
playing the victim and stop making excuses. I am going to pull up my big girl panties and get the job done. If I allow myself to play the victim, I will never be able to be successful in this journey or in anything else. I can do this!!! I know things happen and trigger the anxiety attacks but that is no reason to make it a license to eat all the time and not track and not exercise! At those times, I need to do other things to get through and NOT turn to food. I need to continue to do those things that move me forward. I need to continue my healthy routines.
It is easy to tell yourself that you are only going to have a piece of something and then find yourself eating more and more (like every time you go to the kitchen). I have eaten everything that isn't tied down and what was tied down, I have found the necessary tools to get it loose so I could eat it! lol
I spent some time this morning looking at pictures that I have taken of myself when I was trying to fit into clothes. Then I looked at myself in the mirror. The smile I had seen before isn't there today. I want it back. I know the way that I am going to get that smile back is to get on the ball and stop making excuses.
NO EXCUSES!!!! I am going to try again! Oh I finally hung up my motivational cards that I made a while back. Yeah I know, I should have done that a long time ago but they are up now. So the plan is to read them every time I go to my room.
Well, I am having trouble holding my eyes open and since I don't have my glasses on, I am not even sure if I am typing things right! LOL I am off to get some more sleep.