Thursday, December 20, 2012
I got 9 hours of sleep. The last produce order for the holidays is locked and loaded. My "to do list" grows by the moment, but I'm rolling with it. Called my Mom to make final plans for Christmas and she reminded me of something I needed to add to my "to do list."
No one's family is perfect, mine included. I won't say what it is, but there is a subject that keeps being brought up that creates high emotion especially during the holidays. I am bull-headed. I will debate to the death using all philosophical arguments that seems logical at the time. My poor husband reminds me that I am way too competitive.
Forgiveness seems so unnatural because we've been hurt and we don't want to open ourselves up to being hurt again. Seriously, if you put your hand on the stove and you are burnt, you're not going to do it again. How many times do you have to turn your other cheek? Just when you feel healed, the scab has been picked and the emotional bleeding begins again. In my bull-headedness, I drew a line in the sand, it was crossed and I walked away. I win!
*This was some serious stuff here ... we literally de-friended each other on face book* (Sorry, I need some humor)
I was half-heartedly listening to my mom and giving her every excuse in the book why I would not take this step. Then I figured I would let the holidays get past and deal with the issue later. I hang up with her, read my inspirational FB posts and BAM this is what popped up.
Now wait just a minute... I am bull headed which means strong, right? I won, right?
Wrong ..... I lose. I lose a day each day I stay on my side of the line opposite of this person.
It really is amazing how 9 simple words in sequence can make all the difference. "I will always love you and I forgive you."