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The second, first step

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Today, December 19th, I started over. I realize that in the last month I haven't done myself workouts, not logging my food, eating out, over eating, not drinking enough water. Well today I took my second first step.

I resolved that 31 pounds is NOT enough and that I have NO time to lollygag.

I put down the extra calories. I logged my food. I put down the Monster energy drinks to cut out caffeine. I filled up my water bottle.

It is my second first step and it is scary....I wonder if I am still motivated. I wonder if I still feel worth it. I wonder if I still have what it takes to keep going.

But I am standing here, one step further along.

Somewhere along the way I forgot my motivation. I forgot my value. I forgot my worth. I forgot about me.

Please pray for me. I need to keep going and going and going until I reach my destination. I am scared of the stones in the path and the stumbles that will inevitably come. But not so scared that I can't take my second first step......

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    I have decided that there is no permanent destination, but a journey. Sure, I stop along the way to enjoy the moment, day, month, year and I also backtrack sometimes for good and not so good reasons but this journey does not end. Sometimes I am elated and others defeated but I will never give up or quit. You just took a break and made some choices that landed you here but the journey continues. Choose your path... I have by no means mastered this but have learned soooo much. Don't take on that all-or-nothing attitude. One step, one day at a time. You can do this, you have done this, you will do this, you are doing this! Keep Sparking! emoticon
    1972 days ago
    You still have your motivation! You know you want to get there. Just dust off your motivation and you WILL reach your goals!
    One step at at a time! It's enough. They add up!
    1972 days ago
    emoticon emoticon one small step at a time - one small goal at a time.
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    1980 days ago
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    1981 days ago
    You lost a little steam but you have it in you to KEEP GOING!!! Keep pushing one milestone at a time. YOU CAN DO IT. YOU'VE DONE IT ONCE, YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1981 days ago
  • MA_KING69
    what's the line ...'the journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step' ? Use the site . Use the community, give yourself permission to succeed and chase away that weight
    1981 days ago
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