Tuesday, December 18, 2012
I had a run last week where I broke 29 minutes for 3 miles. I couldn't believe it, because I never thought I'd be capable of running 10 minute miles, and then to even surpass that...it's just more than I ever hoped for. My goal of running a 5k race in less than 30 minutes is attainable. Some days are better than others, and for whatever reason I can run faster one day than the next. Basically I just run and do the best I can each time, and really, giving it our best is all we can ever do.
This weekend I didn't work out. I did Friday, and had planned to Saturday, but didn't. I found myself incredibly depressed after the school shooting in Connecticut and it really affected me hearing about it. I couldn't stop thinking about it the whole weekend, and even yesterday and today. Life is so fleeting. You can put your kids on the bus or kiss your spouse good bye, and that could be the last time you ever see them. This weekend I spent time just doing things with my kids. We made cut out sugar cookies and watched movies and just hung around together.
My heart really breaks for those families. I can't even imagine being able to get up out of bed, or talk to anyone, or function if that happened to my kids. Yesterday my husband brought home the USA today he got on the train, and I couldn't even finish reading it. I was just bawling. Then I am seeing just awful things from people on facebook, many of whom seem more concerned about their gun rights than the fact that all those innocent people were gunned down. I have a lot of opinions on these things, which I don't have the mental energy to get into right now, but I am sure I will at some point. I need to process it more.
We didn't bring this up to our kids because they are young, but I figured if they heard about it or asked about it, we'd talk to them. I don't want them feeling anxious about going to school. My son already has issues, and my daughter is only in kindergarten.
All I know is I am looking forward to Christmas this year. I think it's going to be a good one for us, and for that I am happy, but it's hard to be happy knowing so many other people are in pain. My husband has vacation time soon, and he's been working so much the last couple months, so it will be nice for him to be off for a whole week.
What I am most happy about is the fact that my family is together, and we're all healthy and that we'll get to spend time together next week.